Musings from my Twenties

NaNoWriMo

2011-11-01T21:29:00.002Z

NaNoWriMo is National Novel Writing Month which challenges you to write 50.000 words in one month. i have decided to take part this year after seeing something about it on BBC Breakfast. I will also try to blog on a semi regular basis about how i am getting on. I have started well writing more than the average words per day needed for today ( average need is 1667 per day to get to 50.00. in 30 days). Whether this trend continues is hard to say but its a start. I did make the mistake of deciding to do this abut 3 days before had and spending that time pondering plot lines and main characters. I have my main character or at least the start of him, no idea on what he will face or how he will overcome if he does overcome or anything. Just writing day to day and using the time i spend dog walking with Dave to work through ideas and hopefully get some idea as to what to write that day.

I'm pretty sure most of what i write will be rubbish and that if i ever get brave enough to read it through and try editing it i will be there for awhile. However i feel this is something i should do as i used to be so good at writing when i was younger and i miss being creative. I'm not overly musical or arty, i could do jewelry with mum but shes so much better at ideas than i am. We shall see how it goes, i also want to do it just to see if i can do it, its like with video games I'm so good at starting them but i hardly ever finish one, i can currently think of around only 10 -15 games i have finished. it would be nice to finish even if it is rubbish, also by then Dave might be wanting to read it as he is being my sounding board for ideas and he will be curious as to how I've put keystroke to screen.

Any who, I've spent the best part of 3hrs today staring at a screen wondering about things to write, i now intend to relax and hope for random ideas to pop into my head that i may write them down for the future.

Driving, dogs and Dave

2011-05-03T14:23:00.001+01:00

Well it's been awhile and a few things have happened, some good and some sad.
I booked my theory test, took it and passed it :D I was soo chuffed, one step closer to driving. I'm now working on my diving confidence and hopefully it won't be too long til im passing the practical. We shall see though, not in any rush just so long as I do it right.

The sad news is that Jazz who we had rehomed from The Dog's Trust passed away at the end of march. The whole family was gutted, but we gave her a good year with us and she didn't have to be stuck in a kennel.

From this sad news does however come some optimistic news, we have rehomed a new dog from The Dog's Trust, this time coming from Evesham. Hs name is Bowie (even if he doesn't seem to think so) and we get the feeling he was not well treated before being found as a stray. His and english setter cross and he has a lovely nature when he lets you see it. He is however very nevous and anxious of people, sudden noises etc so while we know hes got a loving home, it's going to take some time for him to get the hang of it. I'm writing my blog downstairs just to keep an eye on him, i don't mind tho as every so often he comes up to have a nosey at me.

In other news, dave has been offered training with barnardos for thier summer scheme, unfotunatley they didn't offer him the job that is after the training. he still might get work if one of the other is ill/absent though so theres a small glimmer of hope. he has applied for a scholl position but i get the feeling it's going to be a who you know rather than personal merit type deal so hes got no chance. However you never know and hey may go for him, he has got best part of two years at Roseheyworth to back him up.

I'm currently plodding along at work, theres some overtime hours going at the moment and i'm getting a few of them which is keeping me busy. Currently on a week off which im going to enjoy as much as i can. Today is dog sitting day as i'm the only one in and we only had him on sun so still very unsure of everything. Plannng a lil trip out 2m with dave as a birthday pressie for him as im working next week when his actually birthday is.

Thats about it really, been playing wow a fair bit and watching csi miami on dvd. I've rented The Last Airbender to see how it compares to the series (i've heard not too well so i'm not expecting much)

Off i go then take care all

A new year

2011-01-15T14:21:00.000Z

and i'm already worn out. It is of my own doing though so there we go. I decided before xmas that my room needed a good clean up, the easy solution would be to kick Dave out but i am rather fond of him so instead of doing that i've spent currently about 5 days going through everything and getting rid of all that i don't want/need. So far 4 black bags have gone to charity, a rather large amount of paper has been recycled, and 3 bags or so of rubbish. I was amazed at some of the stuff i'd kept, i mean did i really need my maths book from secondary school, nope. I haven't gone through absolutely everything as i'm no loosing my will to live, but i have gone through more than first anticipated as i decided a small rearrange of the furniture was in order so i got in the big cupboard thats normally hidden. It was hard work moving everything and my muscle keep reminding me but i think it was worth it as the bed is now in a better place for getting out of and it more organised so keeping it tidy should be easier.

Aside from doing that on my days off, work is back to basic hours and going slowly at the moment as not many people are about shopping. Other than that my driving lessons are back to normal and im getting there slowly. I'm hoping to get my theory test booked and done soonish and passing my practical this year would be awesome.

Not much else going on at the mo, just been playing alot of WoW now that i've got cataclysm and ive been going on the wii fit alot too, forgot how much fun it was. I am kinda trying to lose weight but im not going on some silly diet of doing exercise til it kills me, i'm just going to try to eat less rubbish and get up and about a little more. There a certain furry dog that probably wouldn't mind a few extra walks than she gets now. I'm never going to get down to the weight the wii wants me to, i haven't seen that weight since before secondary school so ive got no chance and i'd probably feel too thin then anyway. We'll see how it goes, as long as i don't put on anymore i'll be happy.

Well im off to try and get a trojan off my pc again, they always turn up a couple of days after i install antivirus software which is rather annoying. oh well.

Snow, christmas and all that

2010-12-17T14:49:00.000Z

Well its been snowing most of the day so far, and we woke up to about an inch or so. The buses haven't been running all day and i didn't fancy getting in to work with dad and then not coming home again especially as mum and dad aren't back til mon. Luckily i have sat and sun off so i am not likely to miss too much work thankfully.

It does give me a chance to relax and rest before next week which is going to be a bit hectic as long as the snow eases off which they are saying it should do but then again they have been wrong before :P

Since my last post ive been mainly working or playing wow or watching stuff. My driving lessons are going ok although it has bee a month since my last one as it was snowing for one lesson and i had to reschedule the other due to work. I've got one on thurs hopefully tho :)

Watched a film called Pandorum the other night which was good. I was worried it was gonna be a bit too scary as im not a big fan of scary films even though i will watch them. However this was doen well and i could feel the suspense throughout and even though dave and i did guess about the major plot points we weren't entirely right which made a nice change to most of the usual stuff that comes from the movie world. I was also surprised by the ending, i really didn't think it would end the way it did but yet again i was wrong. Overall i did enjoy it, not sure its one i'm gonna rush to add to the collection but if it ever popped up on tv i'd prob give it another viewing.

Not much else going on really, daves applied for his PGCE and we are crossing our fingers and hoping. I'm looking forward to some family time over the xmas weekend and thats about it.

One day i'll blog reguarly

2010-10-23T14:44:00.000+01:00

So it's been awhile since my last post and a few things have happened, nothing overly major.

I'm still having driving lessons every fortnight and they are going well, keep making a few silly mistakes but i think I'm improving overall and its just a case of remembering to do everything properly and in good time.

Dave has still not had an success getting a job altho he did manage to get an interview even if he didn't get it, its still a good sign that someone may give him a chance. He did have some good news in that he was asked to cover for another teaching assistant at the school he volunteers at for 2 days so he should hopefully be getting the money for that soon. He has been looking into doing a PGCE but most unis want a 2:2 degree or higher which sucks given that hes had a decent bit of experience and is quite keen to do the course. I keep poking him to email unis to see if they will consider him. We shall see, there is an undergrad course for teaching but it would be the cost that would be an issue. It's a shame things always have to come down to money.

We have recently got back from a visit to Dave's parents up in Doncaster which was nice. We had a lovely time up there and went to visit Vikki and Mark while we were up there too, I'd forgotten how nice Domino's pizzas were :) I spent far too much while we were up there tho, mainly because we found out the new magic the gathering set had been released and we got ourselves some decks from that. I did enjoy myself tho so its not all bad.

I'm back in work on Monday and normality resumes but its payday Tues so looking forward to that. Also Anna is planning on visiting again next weekend as long as the parents say yes :) Shes left a bag of stuff here as she visits soo much at the mo. Got a trip to Cardiff planned for the dreaded Xmas shopping, if i start now i might actually get it all out of the way and then i won't have to worry about it :)

I think that covers everything, there's been a new patch in WoW preparing us for Cataclysm but i have a separate blog for my geeky WoW rambles :)

It's raining again :P

2010-09-14T15:09:00.000+01:00

Ok so since my last post, i can safely say that the Abertillery Blues festival was fun and more successful than first thought, being in the beer tent was an added plus point :) and mum and i got nicely merry while we were there.
The abergavenny craft fairs continue to pod along with varying amount of success, there isn't one in September due to the food festival even though that's the weekend after we'd have a craft fair.

This coming weekend is the food festival and luckily this year i am only working the sat morning which is awesome. it also gives Anna, dave and i a chance to have a wander around and enjoy the atmosphere. i have never really explored the food festival so this year i might have a little wander.

Anna is with us from Friday night til Monday night and aside from a wander about town on sat there will be a lot of WoW played. She's got a gamecard and shes not afraid to use it :P That and its brewfest next week and she wants to try the boss for the first time ever and needs to level to do so. I'm sure theres a list of things she wants to do over the weekend and it could mean a few late nights but as I'm off sun and Mon i don't mind :)

I had a month break from driving lessons due to my instructor being on holiday and then getting a cold when he came back. I did manage a drive to pick Anna up in August which was fun with hints of terrifying. My first lesson back was an adventure as we just drove for the whole lesson, this confused me as I'm used to stopping and chatting about driving etc. It was also scary as he took me somewhere I'd never been before, we went down through Usk, back towards Raglan then back through Usk and back home again. It was a good run though and by the end of the lesson i had remembered that i could do it if i just believed in myself more.

My pc is back to factory settings and i have installed very little on it, just what i need and only 2 games at the mo. WoW is being run from my external as is my music collection. Not had any major probs with WoW and its nice to have a pc with little clutter. It starts up in a sensible time again :)

I have gotten back into reading again and my chosen place to read is on the bus into work at the moment. Its taking me awhile but I'm over halfway through Assassain's Quest by Robin Hobb. It the final book in The farseer Trilogy and it is awesome it just takes ages for me to read. After this book i may read something a bit more easy going just gotta pick something from the many books i own :S

I also managed to complete a game the other day - Professor Layton and Pandora's Box, i still need to find all the puzzles, I'm 14 short of having all of them but i might go do some later. It's been ages since I've completed a game, I'm contemplating going back to CSI Dark Motives and finishing that as i was on case 3 out of 5 so I'm halfway there near enough.

Think that's enough rambling for now, I'm off to try to install the ptr for wow to see some of the new changes, this could take the rest of the day

Busy month

2010-07-09T12:02:00.000+01:00

well july is a month full of stuff, the first weekend, mum and me went and did the Friends of Castle Green summer fair. It was a good day even if i got sunburnt, that'll teach me :P
Work is keeping me busy and im doing the odd extra shift at the moment which i am grateful for.
Anna is visiting and a trip to cardiff is planned for monday, before that there is the abergavenny craft fair tomorrow and im working all weekend.
The following weekend, there is the Abertillery Blues festival which mu has gotten a table for in the craft tent so the 16 and 17th we'll be there.

Other than that i have had one driving lesson and will have another before the month is out. I'm hoping that i can get some practice in mums car soon as i really think it would help.

Aside from that i have been having pc issues. I got an infection that destroyed my connection to the internet. I gave up trying different types of removal software and just restored it back to factory settings. I haven't tested WoW on it yet but will do soon, that will be the ultimate test to see if it really has recognized my graphics card.

I think that covers most things, hoping philip can come visit again soon and thats about it at the mo :)

Birthday etc

2010-06-26T09:52:00.001+01:00

Well i turned 24 this week, there was cake and presents and work unfortunately but oh well. I am now the proud owner of a digital camera all of my own. Its a baby version of the ones my mum and dad have but it still has more functions than i'm likely to every understand. So hopefully in the near future my blog will start having some picture in it of things i see everyday that make me think or i find interesting,

I also had a driving lesson that started off quite rubbish as i just had a blank on how to do anything. It did get better and by the end of the lesson i was back to feeling at least half competent again. I really can't wait to get some extra practise in as then i won't spend the first 30mins of my lesson remembering everything again. 2 weeks between lessons is rather a long time really but i can't afford them every week and only having one hour wouldn't give us much time to get to town and then back home again and do much in town.

In Dave's news he has applied for yet another teaching assistant job and i hope we hear something from this one even if it is a no, just be nice to get some feedback. His course finishes soon and the school where he currently is is happy for him to continue going there as a volunteer once it is finished so if nothing else he will have something to do.

Well its a nice day today and dave and i are going for a picnic in a little bit and maybe just maybe i'll catch the sun and stop being a pale shade of pale :P

Its raining so i'm blogging

2010-05-29T10:09:00.000+01:00

Just read my last entry and realised its been far too long since i blogged. Also a couple of things have happened since then.

I've been to visit Anna, which was fun even if i was hijacking her laptop so i could play my new lvl 80 hunter. Did get to show her some heroics and have sorted out skype for her so we can chat occasionally. After that it was straight up to Dave parents place for a few days up there, met up with Vikki and Mark as well. We all went for a lovely indian as a few birthdays were close.It was lovely to see everyone and get away for a bit.

Just before we went away finally plucked up the courage to start driving lessons. I said to myself at the start of the year i would do it and now i've started it i've got no excuse to stop, even if it means less money for other things. I'm enjoying it so far, had 4 lessons but i have 2 hours each. My instructor has found a nice balance between pushing me out of my comfort zone while still knowing that i can do it. Just got to wait and see, i'm hoping that i can have a go in mums car in the future to get some extra practice in but we're waiting for that.

Work is still plodding along, dave nearly finished his teaching assistants course and is looking for a relevant job. Has applied for one but heard nothing yet :(

Well i've got the day off but not sure what to do with it, currently playing my rogue on WoW while typing this. Did get District 9 to watch so may do that later. Thats enough for now though.

Plodding along

2010-04-08T09:26:00.000+01:00

I'm still here, I'm still alive just been playing too much WoW and watching too many dvds :P
Had a visit from Phlip which was fun, we had a day out in cardiff where i spent too much money but was awesome. We watched Up while she was here while eating a massive amoutn of pick + mix, the film had some great moments and was a happy/sad film.
Work has been plodding along, el one of our assistant manages has left and we're waiting for a new one. This means a little bit of overtime at the mo but that will stop soon no doubt. I've booked my holidays and the first one i have coming up is going to be busy as i plan to visit anna and daves parents in the space of a week. I'm hoping i can afford a few days away just for me and dave but its looking likely it will be a camping trip not that i mind but daves no so sure. I'm off to cardiff again on the 17th this time to see rach, dan and lil meg as shes a whole year older.
Anna will be visiting on sunday and we hope to be making some muffins as a way of bribing dad for all the lifts he gives me. I'm gonna try and get her on lego rock band as well which should be fun :)

Thats all for now going to do a few bits before work this afternoon.

The return of the Xbox

2010-03-15T19:16:00.000Z

Well, i sent it off on the thursday and had a replacement last friday. Just need to find a scart cable now as the one we were using to connect the scart switcher box to the tv is being used to connect the freeview box. Once that is back up and running though i may make an effort to complete some of the games i have.Also need to get another controller so me and dave can play lego batman together.

I'm currently in the process of sorting out our room, so far so good, still got too much stuff but found some clothes that can go to a better home. I just got fed up of living with piles of clothes and stuff on the floor so im going to make the effort to keep it tidy just hoping dave tries to do that same. One day we'll have our own place to fill up but til then i'll have to keep putting things in boxes and having over full shelves.

Not much else going on, i've been working alot lately but the next few rotas settle down again so i'll hopefully have the time to play the games i want and to finish reading Brisingr finally. Been planning a few trips as i really should put my holiday form in at work. Nothing major just a trip to see dave's parents and then Anna and maybe a weekend to ourselves somewhere in a tent, can't afford anywhere with a bed :P

The xbox has gone

2010-03-05T10:25:00.000Z

Well its been picked up and is on its way to germany to be repaired. I hope i get it back, went on teh xbox site and it said no pending repairs even though it would let me cancel the repair :S oh well if in 3 weeks im still xboxless i'll start to worry. Despite the fact i ahve no working xbox i still bought a game for it :P but it was lego batman adn it was a fiver so i couldn't let that pass me by.

In other news i have my first new pair of glasses for five years :) they still make my head ache a little behind the ears but ive only had them since wednesday afternoon. They aren't particularly exciting but compared to my scratched and battered old pair they look quite snazzy.

I've been playing WoW far too much lately and my hunter has now reached level 74 and is looking forward to 80 even though it might take me a while to get there.

I'd best be off to work now though, doing 11 til 3 so will have some time to myself when i get back as daves on placement and won't be hoe til around half 5 :)

And now we wait

2010-02-23T09:50:00.000Z

Well in regards to the xbox issue i mentioned in teh last entry i have asked microsoft if they will repair it and despite being out of warranty they are supposed to be sending me a shipping label so i can send it back to be repaired. So now i'm waiting on this email and then just got to package it all up and hope for the best. If they do fix it then i will have saved nearly £200 as we were thinking of geting the elite console. Its been annoying as i keep seeing xbox games i'd like to play and the new final fantasy is out this year and that is definetly being bought.

As a result of trying to save money for a new xbox which i may or may not need i am being really tight and have not spent that mush last week and won't this week. Its payday friday and there are a few things i need to get, dave needs a new phone mainly and i would finally like to start learning to drive (if only i coul pick an instructor) also mums birthday is this month as well as mothers day so will need to budget for that. I have enough to get by but it would be nice to have a bit more once in awhile, i feel like quite the meany saying no to getting things all the time, i mean i dont often consider buying a game if it over a tenner. Heres hoping my pay isnt too bad this month.

On the plus side i have ordered some new glasses, the first new pair in 5 years. They are only cheap but they will be new and not bent or sratched :) I am annoyed that specsavers did charge me for my glasses before i got them as im not getting them til the 3rd of march. Thats just me though. Also the 3rd of march is the day we go digital in our little part of wales. i'm hoping that with the addition of a digibox thingy (ah another thing to get) that i will finally have more than 4 channels (altho one is the welsh one so more like 3 :P ). I'm especially looking forward to having Five as it shows csi and ncis which i can watch no end. Even if i know an episode of csi i can never remeber who did it, obviously i do if i've seen it recently but generally my mind goe i know this but who did it.

Thats about it for now i think.

Theres always something

2010-02-12T08:58:00.000Z

Well since my last post the xbox 360 has had the red rings of death and is now an expensive paperweight. This does come at an annoying time as both myself and dave were on a playthrough of Blue Dragon and i was up to the third and final disk. Also dad has been playing fable 2 which i think hes been enjoying a bit. It also means the more reliable dvd player in the living room is out of action good job theres the ps2 for backup. I'm now on the lookout for a good deal on an xbox preferably an elite as it comes with a bigger hard drive as standard. Its just annoying that its one of those things that i'm just not sure about buying of ebay, i'd prefer to go to a shop but its likely to cost a little more that way.
It died just before i went to Annas which made me worry about money again but all was well and i enjoyed my weekend there. We had a trip to St Albans, i stocked up on cheap incense from a discount store and got some that wasn't vanilla for once. We made a coffee and pecan cake which was lovely and i made the usual korma that is required of me. So all in all i ate to much but it was fun.

Other than that, not much is going on, i've got dishes waiting for me and a lovely soak in the bath before playing a bit of WoW and deciding what to have for lunch, its odd being at home and not having dave here but its nice to have the time to myself.

Back to normality

2010-01-26T10:07:00.000Z

I know this is a bit late but everything is back to normal after the snow.
Firstly dave is back at school on tuesdays and is no also doing friday afternoons to help make up the time and get more experience. I do hope he can find a job out of it as he'll need something to keep him busy and focused. I just don't want him to mope too much after his course ends. Theres also the fact that hes not signing on anymore as i was working too much over xmas and im not going to make him go back until his course is done as otherwise it gets too confusing and stressful, as well as costing even more money for him to go back to newport.

As for me i'm back at work and only doing four days a week. I'm happy with that at the moment though, gives me enough time to do other things. My pay from over xmas was nice though and will give me a chance to get a few things sorted that i've been putting off. Firstly i can get my eyes checked again and actually afford new glasses which im in dire need of. I'm also able to go visit anna at uni in just under a fortnight which should be fun. I'm also looking into driving lessons as it is one of my main aims this year to get that sorted. Just got to find a driving instructor now and get on with it.

I'm back playing WoW reguarly now after the xmas break altho im still managing to have time away from the pc. Dave and i are on season 6 of C.S.I and season 5 of Stargate. we alternate disks so we're currently on Stargate but in 2 episodes its back to C.S.I. This way works well as we don't forget the important little details. I just bought C.S.I seson 7 part 2 so got a few to keep us going. Also need to rewatch House at some point as anna got me series 3 for xmas.

Amoung my recent achievements is the completion of lego Rock Band, well we completed the career part, still need to get the all the achievements in it but its only a mnatter of time, more of that in a later blog i think.

Well i'm off, got my facebook things to check and some dishes to do in a bit

Fable 2

2010-01-14T15:37:00.002Z

So i got fable 2 for Christmas which was a pleasant surprise. I had played the first one a little so knew what to expect and i wasn't let down. I much enjoyed playing it on the xbox when compared to playing the fable on my pc. The controls felt nearly second nature, except the few times i pressed B accidentally, to get out of things and it cast a spell and scared the villagers away, although this did come in handy when i got surrounded and stuck or i felt like stealing from their cupboards.

I will say now that i was playing the game as a good guy (well girl actually as you can pick your gender in this one), all the important points where we had to pick either good or evil i went with good. i put the rent and prices down on any stalls and houses i bought. i was friendly to people and saved the slaves rather than making people be slaves. So overall i was good, just a few books and pies stolen now and then.

This game was easy enough to complete, i got it xmas and finished it yesterday and that was with a week of not quite playing as my disc wasn't being read by the xbox. This also includes doing most of the side quests, i still have a few left but they mainly involve killing gargoyles and buying very expensive housing. I enjoyed the voice acting in the game as the main characters are voiced by people i quite enjoying watching on the tele (Stephen Fry and Zoe Wananmaker) The story moves along at a fair pace and if you followed the main plot it would be quite a short and sweet game. The game allows the hero to get married, have kids and buy as many buildings as he/she can afford. i will admit i got married as it was kinda part of a side quest and because i was being nice i couldn't be evil to the guy.

You get income every 5 mins from your houses and stalls and this counts even when not playing. however due to our xbox being off with no power it resets to the default time everyday so we found out that if you set it to the correct date and time it counted as having you played that time and you got rather a lot if money. Dave used this trick a few times, i did it once deliberately but if i started playing after dave then it happened anyway. It does make getting enough money for the expensive buildings a lot easier tho. I think i would have liked to have had gold as a reward for questing but i can see why they didn't and gave you the chance to do jobs instead which aren't that bad if done in small chunks.

Fighting was very straightforward with the standard slashing, shooting or magic options. I did miss the heal spell but considering i had infinite mana it makes sense. Also excessive use of the inferno spell solved most of my problems as long as i had a potion or two on me.
Overall i rather enjoyed that and i know some say its too short but it was just right for me given that i work and the tv the xbox is connected to also is the main tv so i couldn't play non stop.

Its the first game I've finished in a long while and its kinda made me want to go play more games, i did play a little gears of war while fable 2 was not working and i may go finish that or finish one of the other many games i have.

Snow, Snow and More Snow

2010-01-13T15:37:00.002Z

Well we've had more snow, we had some last week which stopped me going to work wednesday and we had some last night that stopped me going to work today. On the plus side i don't need to be in work til sunday now so hopefully things will have gotten back to normal. We'll probably still have some snow left but as long as the roads are clear things carry on as they should be really.

It has been quiet at work obviously as not as many people are out shopping. We haven't had big deliveries either as its after xmas and it goes a bit slow for a bit so we've not had a lot to do in the shop lately. The boredom has caused the staff to carry out extra cleaning just so we've got something to do.

I'm also missing the benefits of central heating in the long cold spell, i've got 2 duvets and a sleeping bag on the bed and most evening i'm snuggled up under a blanket. I'm also drinking large amounts of tea in a bid to keep me warm, i tried going on wii fit the other night but it was too cold to stay on it long enought to work up a sweat.

Well thats it for now, gonna go grab a cuppa

Snow

2010-01-05T19:09:00.002Z

Well at the time of writing i have yet to miss a shift at work due to the adverse weather we've been having. I did leave early with a colleague one day as otherwise i would have been stuck, although it after turned out my dad is awesome and manged to come pick me up.
The problem we face where i live is that it can be quite deep and snowing with us but if you go 6 miles down the road then its clear and normally raining.
They are saying that there will be heavy snow tonight but i am not convinced but we shall see.

Well that's my ramble about the weather, a ramble and review of lego rock band coming soon

A New Year

2010-01-03T17:09:00.002Z

Whats there to say, time is ticking over as it should and another year has passed. This last year has been alright, not brilliant but not rubbish. Good points include my brothers wedding, seeing rach, dan and baby meg in their new house, getting a 16 hour contract at work and having dave still here.
Not so good has been the lack of jobs and money from the jobcentre for dave, not securing a placement for my course and just a general sense of not getting anywhere.

All that being said i'm happy with where i am at the moment, there are things i'd want and like but at the end of the day i've got a roof over my head, good company and good food and thats all i really need.

This year i aim to learn to drive if nothing else and support dave in his bid to become the best classroom assistant he can be. I've put the counselling idea on hold til i've lived a little more and things are more settled in that i can drive and maybe dave and i get our own place.

Til then its a combination of playing WoW, working, seeing friends if i can and playing on my xbox 360, since i've developed a new found love for it.

More updates coming soonish i hope.

its been awhile

2009-08-21T09:51:00.002+01:00

but there has been alot going on.

Firstly i've finished studying at college which is great in some ways but i will miss those thurs evenings. I haven't completed the course quite yet tho as i need to carry out 15 hours of counselling on someone somewhere. I'm hoping to volunteer for pontypool women's aid but we shall have to see if they have enough clients. Once the 15 hours are done and i've had supervision and written my 2500 word case study i will finally have my diploma hooray,

There has also been alot of change at work, my boss left and we have a new manager and assistant manager. We are still settling down as it were and getting to know each other. My new boss is not like my old boss so i will see how it goes. it does mean that with a full management team for the first time in a year my hours are back to what im contracted. This is gonna make things a bit tougher than they have been as i'm used to lots of overtime and nice payslips. We can manage but i am dying to learn to drive now and it would be the best way to find better jobs. Just means not buying anything frivolous.

Lastly dave has finished at A4E (training company the jobcentre send you to) and as a result is back to mopping round the house. I've been trying to get him to start a course but his enthusiasm for anything other than cake and ice cream is non existent. i know how he feels having been to a4e myself but i was lucky and got my job. I do hope he picks up soon.

We went to visit rach, dan and meg at the beginning of aug for a house and baby warming.It was good to see them as despite only living a mere hour away we don't get to see them as much as we'd like. The new house they are in is lovely even without being finished on the inside. It was good to see them and was nice to be out of the house and socialising. It did make me want my own place even more than i already do but that will come one day.

It been hard for me lately so much has changed and i just feel like i'm getting nowhere, 2 years after uni and i'm still at home. I'm not even sure what i'm heading for anymore, until i've done some actual counselling i won't know if its right for me or not. It may be something i should come back to when i'm a little older. Then again i have no fallback plan hmm. Daves full of eternal optimism but i'm only optimistic on my good days, part of me knows it'll be ok in the end and if nothing else i know my family are there for me. Oh well, i'll look into driving lessons and see how it goes, one small step at a time.

On a lighter note my shammy it 70 in WoW and is adventuring in Northrend. Just need to get my hunter to outland, power level my rogue to open lockboxes and play our low (lvl 30) warrior priest combo. oh and sort out the guild bank again, 4 tabs of stuff *sigh*

take care and have fun

xXx

Its about time

2009-05-26T10:16:00.002+01:00

I blogged again.

Where to start, well my brother got married beginning of may and it was a lovely day, the rain held of and the sun did come out. Beulah looked lovely and my bro was very smart in his suit. My dad was also seen in a suit after years (and i mean years) of not going near one. we even got dave in a suit and he had a major haircut for the occasion. He did look very handsome.
Other than that i'm still working at peacocks and have realised i haven't had a bank holiday off yet which sucks. Also i will be going back to contracted hours soon as we have a new manager starting on july 1st, which is a bummer but also gives me more free time. Not sure what i will do with it but i'll think of something.

My free time is coming at the wrong time for dave as he is stuck at A4E all week and so we see less of each other now, while this is a good thing to get used to the change it has been taking its toll. yet another speedbump on the road of life but we are managing. Other factors are playing a role as daves pc and the internet often disagree causing much frustration when trying to play WoW, which at the mo i want to but he doesn't. i'm just hoping daves CRB check goes through and he can get a decent placement.

I'm due to finish college on june 25th which is good as although i do enjoy college it does drag after 2 years part time. i still have to complete 15 hours of counselling but i have yet to find anywhere that will take me on, im now looking in Hereford as i might have more luck there.

I'm off to Hatfield at the weekend to meet up with friends and i have next week off so i could make sure i was there for my mates birthday and to help her celebrate the end of her exams, yay drinking.

I think that will do for now

xXx

nearly a year on

2009-03-31T11:08:00.003+01:00

And i'm still in peacocks, i started my placement there around this time last year and i now have a 12 hour contract and im actually working about 20 hrs a week. I can't complain i need the money. It has made me think about my future alot, i'm still living at home and i haven't learnt to drive yet, i've spent most of the last year trying to get out of my overdraft while still having a life of sorts. Its not been easy as i've had to take on some of daves costs as he doesn't get any money from the jobcentre (or atleast not often). I'm just about there though but i'm still not quite where i want to be, driving lessons for example may have to wait for another month or two just to be on the safe side. Things at work are in a constant state of change and so my hours are guaranteed to stay as healthy as they are which leads me to wonder if i should pursue my counselling career by doing the level 5 qualification now or if i should wait as it is an expensive course and would be very demanding of my time. I do not want to ask my parents for help with costs as they have given me enough for my education and i'm just grateful that they do not charge me that much rent and still feed me.

I am due to start a placement in the near future hopefully and this will see if i'm really cut out for the profession and also if i can get regular voluntary work it will atleast keep the skills fresh should i have to have a break in studying.

I feel at the moment it would be best to get more money and get out from under my parents feet, im sure they are getting quite fed up of me and dave by now and i would love to have a place to call my own.

Aside from the more serious parts of life, all is good. i hit level 74 in WoW last night and am earning a fair whack of gold from questing. Still saving for my epic flying skill and i'm just over halfway there. I'm trying to up my alchemy as well but can only get herbs when questing and i have to have dave with me so we don't get to far apart level wise.

I'm also slowly working my way through csi dvds, have so far watched series 2,3 and im on disc 3 of series 1. I'm also managing to rent all 3 of the dvds i am allowed to a month, the last one was TMNT which was quite predictable but was enjoyable.

Anywho i need to tidy up a bit before work and have some lunch.

I passed

2009-03-13T11:13:00.003Z

That's right i passed the exam for the AQA Advanced Certificate in Counselling yays. One more thing to go on my cv. Now just have to find a placement for the diploma and im all set.

2009-03-11T09:31:00.002Z

Well trying to find a placement has been a challenge, i've still not managed it adn i'm running out of places that are local enough. The downside is that as it is looking like i won't complete 15 hours of counselling by th end of june i won't be entered for that part of the course this time round and i will have to wait til october to be entered and january to find out if i've passed it all. While this does suck its not all bad as i'm unlikely to start the next course just yet, at the moment getting money comes first as i'm sure mum and dad would like dave and i to move out. dave and i are feeling the need for our own space but until thee situation improves we must continue to impose on my parents.

On the plus side i'm doind a fair whack of overtime til the end of april atleast and who knows after that. Also if dave doesn't find a job soon he will be sent to A4E adn they will either get him a placement in a school or send him on a training course. This will give him something to do and maybe he will figure out what he wants to do.

Also the diploma is going well so far, its even better as we don't have an exam at the end of it we just have to write a case study of our own counselling practice and a case study based on a written account of a series of counselling sessions which we have been given. We still have the usual skills assessment but hopefully i will feel better about that this time, even more so if i get a placement.

Well i'm off to play wow, my shaman is getting near the point where she can go to outland and it will kill some time before i have to go to work.

xXx

And yet more college

2009-02-23T21:19:00.002Z

well i managed to pass my skills assessment for the advanced cert in counselling, how im not sure but its all good. So i've now finished that one and on thurs i am due to start the Advanced Diploma in counselling. I have yet to secure a placement although there is some more places i can try. I'm looking forward to this course and its a step towards being qualified. Technically after this course i can practice as a counsellor, however for me to be able to practice when the regulations for counsellors are introduced in 2010 i will need a higher level of qualification. Unfortunately i'm not in a position to do that course just yet, i can't afford it and i don't want to risk being too fussy at work as they have been quite accommodating so far and i don't want to push it. I also need the money especially with dave not having a job and not recieving anything from the govenrment.
Least i can come back to it fairly easily as many on my course are older than me (some by atleast 10 years and some more than that) and they are looking to use it to have a change of career.

Aside from college work is ticking over nicely, with an average amount of overtime up until easter atleast and im doing the college development plan slowly in order to get a pay rise (only about 20p and hour) but it all helps.

I'm still playing far too much WoW but thats as usual, recently dave and i have hit the grind from level 73 to 80, boy its taking forever to level. As relief from that i am leveling my solo chars (mainly my shaman (lvl 51 altho give me an hour and it'll be 52) and hunter (lvl 45).

I've been buying csi boxsets of ebay and have now got the first 3 series of las vegas so yays, i was chuffed with series one as i got it all for £8.99 with free postage, so thats my bargain of the month. Should keep me and dave happy til i can afford some more which will prob be about april given things at the mo but you never know.

thats enough waffle for now, time to go play WoW for about an hour or so before bed, early start 2m, i do love morning shifts even if i have to get up at 7 for them, i can't believe i used to do it daily for weeks on end. oh well

xXx

snow

2009-02-03T10:08:00.002Z

Well we've had about 4in of snow and i had to ring work to say i couldn't get in. I doubt the buses are running as tehy stopped yesterday when we only had an inch of snow so what are the chances. I'm not the only one who can't get to work either, mum and dad are off and the assistant manager where i work wasn't in either.

So dave and i will be taking a walk in a little bit as dave has never been here when its snowed properly before and the tramroad is a pretty sight when its been snowing, saying that the whole valley is pretty, even the pylon.

Aside from snow not much of note has occurred, i'm still plodding along with my job. I'm at the end of my advanced certificate in counselling, ive passed 2 out of three of the skills assessment, last one on thursday, i've sat the exam and am hoping for the best. After that i get 2 weeks of before starting the diploma course for which i need a placement, still not found one but will be asking a few places this week.

Daves still jobless although he keeps trying, the jobcentre did finally give him some money but he can't spend it as its paying off some of his overdraft. We're managing ok though as im geting a decent amount of overtime, i'm just worried about what will happen when the hours go back to normal. But one step at a time.

On teh plus side i managed to get a new graphics card for christmas, which then needed a new power supply (thanks to mum,,dad and rich) and i got some ram so now my pc runs nice and smooth and my graphics in WoW are shiny and im getting a decent frame rate.

Thats all for now, i'm off to finish my cup of tea and get frozen cold outside before a bit of WoW playage. Its so weird not going to work.

xXx

Well the end of 2008 looms

2008-12-31T19:21:00.002Z

And out of a little boredom and due to the family time not starting yet i am on dads laptop blogging.

What can i say about 2008, it was a good year in many ways, i found a job, dave moved in with us and richard got engaged. It had its downsides, dave is not allowed jobseekers and i spent half the year missing him. Altogether though this has been a good year and i hope next year has as many good points to it.

I feel that over the last year i have achieved things that i would not think i am capable of, i started my job in june and managed to become a supervisor by the end of october which has given me more responsibility at work. I have gained confidence from work and actually feel mostly competent at my job. I have started the level 3 counselling course and while i do not feel so confident about my counselling skills i do believe in my natural ability to listen to people which is key to becoming a counsellor. I am currently in two minds about doing the level 5 course as it is looking like i will have to pay the full cost which i am unable to in my current situation. Also i have yet to find a placement for my diploma course which i need to sort by the end of February.

In geekier news, i now have a new graphics card but not the power supply to allow me to use it, hopefully this will be sorted soon thanks to my geeky brother :P I have also been playing WoW on a fairly regular basis and have finally managed to reach level 70 with my Mage after 2 years of play. Considering i have about 20 chars over 3 servers i feel i'm doing quite well. Now that dave and i are level 70 we may get round to playing our other joint chars so that will be fun and i will finally get to play the other classes properly.

The new year will bring with it an exam on the 22nd of jan for my counselling course, which i should really revise for. It does however use the exact same 5 questions each year just applied to a different situation. Also next year my brother is getting married in may and as such i should probably start thinking about what i'm going to wear. Other challenges in 2009 will be what happens when 2 members of staff that went on maternity leave come back, while my contracted hours are ok i do like doing the overtime and the paychecks that result from it. Also i need the money now as i have to "support" dave but oh well we manage and we're ok til mum and dad get fed up of us and want us out.

Well i think thats enough rambling for one night and hopefully ill have a few drinks soon, my bros just started so roll on the new year. Many drinks and some good food and a day off.

I hope everyone has a good new year.

xXx

A return to the blog

2008-08-29T09:39:00.002+01:00

Well its been awhile but im keeping it to one a month atleast. So lets see whats happened since july, well i've ben working all the hours they send me, i thinking im averaging 20 hours a week. I'm now contracted 12 hours a week which is good as it means my base pay is more than jobseekers so i am not going to bother ringing them about a new claim. I can't be bothered with the hassle and they would make me look for a job still anyway.

It was payday on tuesday and so despite not being quite in credit yet i'm still off to cardiff 2m to have a girly shopping day with my mate anna. I've got a budget to stick to but its a healthy one, i also get my garth nix book back off her so i can now read superior saturday. Its also probably the last time ill see her before she goes back to uni. I am hoping my hours quieten down enough so i can have the odd trip to see her and i don't get too tired to do my college work.

Talking of college, i start back next thursday which im also working, i did tell them i couldn't do thurs afternoons but they still try. I sorted it so im working earlier now and can get to college on time. I've started my essay and have done 500 of the 2500 words i need to. i'm spending sunday and next tuesday finishing it. It shouldn't be too hard, the most annoying bit will be the references and the appendices.

We went as a family to see Wall E last week and it was soo cool and i think all of us want one and its def on my xmas list. Its soo cute.

I think that will do for now, my stomach is rumbling so i had best go off and feed it.

xXx

Work, essays and other

2008-07-21T11:17:00.002+01:00

Well work is going well, I've had an interview to up my hours from 4 to 12, not sure ill manage it but i hope to find out soon. I still manage to do plenty of overtime so roll on august when i might see credit for the first time in over a year. It should be payday soon (hopefully the end of the week) but i won't get that much this month as overtime is paid the month after you do it.

Aside from that i've been ignoring my essay for college which is bad but i will try to atleast get a plan done tomorrow as i'm off and hopefully the cold i have will have eased off a bit. Then its just a case of doing it in stages and to be honest half of it is doing the work for the appendix. All the counselling skills mentioned in the main text can be demonstrated using the fictional client that will be in the essay and these form most of the appendices. I know once i've got started it will be fine, it always is, i just take forever to get started.

Other news, my brother is now engaged and is now worrying over various wedding plans and all that goes with married life.
I am planning on purchasing a bike soon so that one i can get to work under my own steam which will save me alot of money and mean i can work sundays and holidays when mum and dad aren't here. Secondly it will also be a way to keep fit, doing 12 miles atleast 3 times a week has got to be good for me. This will probably only last til i've learnt to drive but i doubt i can do that by xmas which is when i ideally need my own transport due to the high probability of me working xmas eve and my parents being far away at that time.

Lastly (this has been longer than i thought) my mate anna is coming to visit wednesday and is staying the weekend which should be good. I get to do lots of cooking and chilling out as i have fri, sat and sun off. I haven't seen her in ages so will be good to catch up and that.

I think thats enough blogging for one day

xXx

employment

2008-06-24T20:06:00.002+01:00

Finally one year on from uni i have found a job, although this is only because of a job placement but im not complaining. Its only a 4hr contract but im currently doing loads of overtime and also its likely ill get more hours soon anyway. Its only retail but it beats sitting at home getting bored, there is only so much WoW a girl can play.

Aside from that dave has now moved in and we're slowly sorting all his stuff out and hopefully after the 5th of july everything will be tidy and sorted. Its been good having him here even if he has been annoying me abit.

College is going well, although i am lacking some skills practice but once dave is back from his resits i will put him to good use as a client. I have an essay to write over the summer, although its only 2500 words which shouldn't take too long once ive got an essay plan sorted and my ficticious client prepared for it.

Oh well i think thats enough for now, i need to go relax and try not to miss dave (hes back in hatfield for his resists).

xXx

oops

2008-05-03T15:44:00.002+01:00

It's been awhile but to be fair i've been far to tired to blog. Since my last blog i have been put on placement in peacocks and its going ok. It's knackering work mind hence why i keep falling asleep watching dvds and playing games at around 10pm. Still sucks that i can't go visit dave but im hoping they will let me have one day when me and the rents go to pick him up to move in here in about 4 weeks.
I am looking forward to him moving in even if it is a lil scary. It'll be nice to not have to say goodbye in a "see you in 2 wks" kinda way. Scary as its a big step and im not 100% sure how we'll cope living together and how dave will cope getting used to wales.
Also last weekend on sat we had my dads leaving do and he is moving from his job for the council to become the CEO of Hereforshire Nature Trust which is a scary move for him but hopefully one where he will have better job satisfaction and just generally be happier doing it.
Mum is now back in work and although still working for the same crappy council is feeling better now she is not crawling up the walls at home.
I am glad to be out doing something and geting retail experience, im just hoping that someone may employ me soon. I keep trying and i just have to wait and see. I just hope dave has more luck than me at getting a job.

i think that'll do for now

xXx

A4E are shit

2008-03-27T16:59:00.005Z

http://www.urbandictionary.com/define.php?term=a4e

says it all

Well says it all really and i'm supposed to go to thier offices in newport for another 12 weeks after 2m for "training" yes well, if i wasnt motivated before i am now, any job will do, although im hoping to sort out my placement 2m, oh i hope i do as that place will destroy my soul other wise.

Anyway i won't go on a rant, ive already done that to dave and its quite long and right now im too tired. Other than A4E making me go to newport and me not being able to see dave to much even though hes down everythingelse is fine. grr

xXx

oops

2008-03-24T11:40:00.002Z

Haven't blogged for awhile, its amazing how the days merge and time just passes me by. damn i need a job. Although on the plus side i am starting my voluntary work tomorrow. Well i'm going for an induction day at the agency that have set it up and hopefully i'll start properly on wednesday or sometime this week. I'm going to be volunteering in the citizens advice bureau and im curious as to what they will want me to do. I told the jobcentre i wanted counselling related work but i suppose ill find out tomorrow and also its something else to go on the cv. Also as this counts as training i don't have to sign on every fortnight now yays, well until june when we have to see what happens with me then.

Since my last blog i have also started the advanced counselling course at college. Its on the same night as the last course which is cool. it is alot more theory than before which is making me think a bit more and we have to write 3 essays for this course and i can't ait to get the title of the first one, even though i know the topic a title is also something good to have.

I am now also starting to worry how i'm going to fit daves stuff into my room in the summer and i am now starting to try and have a harsh clearout of stuff that i just don't need. Hopefully some of it i can flog on eBay and some of it may go to friends if i think they want it. Doesn't help that i don't know if daves rents will keep some of his stuff at home, as until we get a place of our own some things he doesn't need, as me and mum have most of the final fantasy games so he doesn't need them. Its going to be a nightmare i can see it and no matter how carefully i plan it there is no doubt going to be some extra trips up the country. oh well it gives me something to look forward to. I just wish we had a place of our own but that'll have to wait till we both got jobs.

Daves coming back down tomorrow as well and i can't wait even though im gonna be knackered as its an early start as i have to be in newport at 9am. I'll probably put on a film and then just fall asleep knowing my luck.

I think that'll do for now, i'm contemplating having some lunch and then to try to sort my room, i need to tidy it for tomorrow and i might try to sort a few bits out ready for listing on thursday maybe.

take care all

xXx

It's been awhile

2008-02-10T10:32:00.000Z

So heres an update.

I've finished my counselling course, passed all the skills section adn am waiting til march for the exam results. The advanced course start the week after next although i don't know what day yet so i have to ring the college soon.

I'm still jobless, sigh, one day someone will give me a job. off to the jobcentre to see my advisor this wednesday so see what she says. It would nice to bein credit again by my birthday.

This wednesday i am also going down to see dave and that which i am looking forward to. I am also planning to do a girls night in when im there to promote my mums handmade jewelry which should be fun. obviously im also down to see dave for valentines day but this year we're not going the commercial tacky route :D I'm taking him the the british science museum and hes cooking me a three course meal. they might be a few more romantical things but i don't want o disturb anyone :P

I am also trying to start a fitness kick, this is down to the fact im paranoid im gonna have no end of probs being my current weight and also because i don't like what i see when i look in the mirror. My diet is being ok at the moment and im not snacking as much as i used to which i think was my main downfall. I still need to eat breakfast more but im working on that. I'm going to start being more active and fitting in some exercise into everyday, or every other. Also being active might help keep my spirits up because having nothing to get up for really sucks.

Also got Daywatch dvd from amazon rental yesterday and will be watching it next week, will let you know my thoughts. On the dvd note, i watched kill bill vol 2 last week, i have to say the kill bill films, while being something i can watch, i just don't like them, i mean the plots simple enough to follow and its an evening but theres something about the way they've been produced that makes me think i could be watching a better film. Dave has them on dvd and it was his i borrowed, i somehow doubt its a film we're going to reach for time and again.

I think i may start doing dvd review blogs more often, ive seen enough films (and i know liz reads this and might get a recomendation :P) and it'd give me something to do.

Anywho i need to resart my pc and figure out why avg won't install itself and by that time dave might have woken from his slumber (what a great word).

xXx

exams done

2008-01-22T11:20:00.000Z

Well i had my exam for my counselling course yesterday. Some of the questions were a little tricky but hopefully i managed to pass, its based on the national average though so we'll have to wait and see. I still have to go in thursday otherwise id be on a train now, but there are still skill assessments needing to be done and i have one left. We might be having one the week after too but we don't know yet.
This weekend i'm off up to hatfield to see dave and everybody. Looking forward to it as i havent been down for ages and if i don't go this weekend then i won't til the middle of feb and thats just too long.
I've decided that ll application forms should be the same jut to minimise confusion, and also the qualifications section should be bigger. That and i'm just fed up of them now and just want a job, unfortunately i want one that won't stop me going to college and i don't know what day the advanced course is on yet. argh.

Aside from that, ive managed to clear a drawer and some space in the wardrobe for some of daves stuff. Would be nice to have our own place but that ain't gonna happen for awhile. Hopefully dave can get a job pretty quick fingers crossed.

Anyway, i'd best go off and find something to do with the rest of the day, hmm i haven't alphabatised my dvds yet.

xXx

reflection and moving forwards

2008-01-10T21:47:00.001Z

well last year saw a few changes occur, i became a graduate with a 2:2 in psychology, i left behind the student lifestyle i had become acustomed to and went back to living with my parents. This was good and bad, good as i don't have to worry about bills etc, but bad as im now 200 miles from my bf and many of my friends. Also after bing independent (ish) for 3 years, being back home is a challenge to get used to again.

2007 also marked a change in me, i started being myself more and i feel that my confidence has grown even if you wouldn't think it to see me. This year also marked mine and daves 1st year together and i can only hope that there are many more, i know when i think of the future i can see him by my side and i know he feels the same, just gotta get there now. Our current plans due to me being still unemployed are that he will move in with me at my parents (if they let him). I've rearranged my room so that it can become a reality now i just have to get rid of all the things i really don't need.

2008 is promising to be a good year, i'm going to be going onto the advanced course with the friends ive made on the intermediate and it brings me one step closer to my goal of becoming a counsellor. Also in june dave will be with me and hopefully he'll manage to get a job quicker than its taken me. I also hope to have a job by june, new deal maybe able to hep me there so fingers crossed. Also i plan to start learning to drive as well as leading a healthier lifestyle than i do now. I took one look at the scales and decided i wanted to lose weight, im aiming for a stone atleast but we'll see how that goes.

Despite my negative moods that i have which are quite destroying in some respects, i am quite hopeful that the year ahead will have me moving forwards, hopefully in a way i want to go, or atleast puting me where im supposed to be.

xXx

well its been awhile

2008-01-10T15:15:00.000Z

I have been avoiding blogging mainly because he family dog, tweekie died before xmas and i havent really been in the mood to blog. I'm now in better spirit than i was, altho still not 100%. Then again i still don't have a job and dave s still too far away.

Other than the obvious sadness of not having tweekie with us this xmas, it went, and it went ok, i have a new phone (same number) and it purple :) also got a learning to counsel book of my uncle which i think will be very handy in the run up to my exam on 21st jan. My nan was not using her false teeth so only the veg and pudding were eaten at xmas dinner. I myself had a lamb steak that could have been better, still enjoyable tho. It was nice to see all the family again.

we came back and then dave came down the next day which was cool, was soo happy to see him. Then it was the new year, rich and his gf came up the sat before and left evening on new year. Twas good to see him and his gf, it was also nice to have a full house as it were, it just all felt right which was nice. We had the usual gmae of trivial pursuit, which richs gf won on teh old kids questions (some of which are actually hard) and then i came next although i was using the genus questions nd a lot of help. We finished it just before 12 so dave did his party piece on singstar (madonna - material girl for those who havent had the pleasure?), i also did a song and my bro gave a rap song ago.

Since then me and dave spent some quality time together, went out with the rents a few places, picked up a few treats. Dave had to go back to uni yesterday which sucks but hopefully ill get to go visit soon.

I am now on the New Deal thing at the jobcentre, im having regular meetings with my advisor and i get a travelcard that lets me get cheap bus and train fares. Least this should get me into work i want to do even if i have to do volunteer work. i am also if my dad agrees to help pay going to be going onto the advanced certificate in counselling in feb after my current course finishes.

I am also going to be getting a new (well secondhand, lets here it for freecycle) futon, which means sorting my room out again ands i only did it just before xmas. oh well, the mattress has to be better than what i have at the moment.

It has been busy and this is just what has happened, ill post later my thoughts fo this year and share my goals with you, if i blog them i might actually get a few done.

Happy new year to everyone

xXx

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2007-12-27T21:09:00.001Z

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xmas and all that jazz

2007-12-16T22:20:00.000Z

well dave is now back at home and even though he has skype its being a bit pants atm, we'll see what happens once hes back from the pub. Also there is a lack of us playing WoW together atm as he parents unistalled it on the home pc but he can hopefully get if off the site adn we'll be back on weds ish. It does give him a good excuse to do his project work which is good.

I have now done all the xmas shopping and have treated me and dave (coz he'll wear it occasionally) to a Magic the gathering hoodie (yes i am that sad, you can also get jewelry which i wouldn't say no to either). I am also buying a few random cards (well anywhere up to 1500 depending on the auctions ending 2m morning) and a theme deck from lorwyn block. Scarily enough i can afford it, well i won't be spending more than i am getting in from jobseekers.

This week, mainly tomorrow i hope, i will be rearranging my room so that i dont have to walk over my double bed (is actually a futon so only 6in off the floor) to get o everything in my room. It will also make it a bit easier when dave is stayiny as his stuff won't get in the way then yay. This as well as hopefully making my room tidier will also give me something to keep me busy :)

Xmas is going to be spent at my aunties as usual and i think we are going up on sat and coming back on thurs after. I hope so as dave i getting the train down on friday so hes here for new year and the annual getting beaten by mum at trivial pursuit event. On the plus side we may get beaten but we'll get tipsy in the process and eat lots of nibbles :D

i also have college this week and we might be ending early and going the pub after, which reminds me must write xmas cards. the downside to college is that the skills assessments have begun and im a little scared, altho atleast we don't have to counsel our tutor like i thought we would have to, we get to do it in a normal role play situation, its just shes watching quite intently.

I think i've waffled enough for now.

take care

xXx

Graduation, Bill Bailey and all that

2007-11-29T10:59:00.000Z

Well last thurs went to hatfield, twas good, on friday was my graduation ceremony, i'll upload pics once i nab them off mum and dad. it was good if long, i actually had a moment where i felt proud, but that quickly went as i thoughtback to my still being jobless, oh well. Mum who had lost her voice found it again just after the ceremony and she quickly said she was proud etc just in case it went again (which it did but not until sunday).

Then we came back to wales on sat with dave in tow and after some food shopping for mini xmas had been done. Dave then cleverly laid the old sofa cushion i have on my futon on the floor and we slept on them, rather comfy, better than the floor and one of the best nights sleep i've had in awhile, still sleeping on it now even tho dave went home yesterday.

On sunday we made the journey to cardiff by train. We were there a bit early but we got to look in some shops nad check that Cardiff international arena was where i thought it was. We went and had dinner in kfc, nice and cheap altho the toilets were rubbish. Then wandered back and picked up the tickets finally and waited for the doors to open and spent about an hour sitting waiting for the show to start. It was worth it though, the show was awesome, there was some repition of material altho they were classic bill as well as he tweaked a few gags, most of it was new and soo funny. Hes just as brilliant live as you think he is on dvd, well worth the £55 i spent on tickets.

After seeing bill we stayed with me mate rach in cardiff, finally got to see her house, and we can offically all get xmassy now as shes put her tree up yays (says the girl whos organised a mini xmas for the 8th and 9th). Also got to meet her kitty, whos so much fun as all kittys are as they will try to pounce on anything. Will have to have a proper vsit to see rach one weekend, just not sure when, curse you lack of money.

On that note i spent a fair whack of this fortnights jobseekers on my familys presents and sams, so xmas has been ordered nowit jst needs to turn up. Also this week as wel as getting moeny, i got a fever which i think is going now but still not 100%, but i'd rather get it out of the way now than have it at xmas coz thas annoying.

Take care all

xXx

Patch Day

2007-11-15T11:04:00.000Z

*warning WoW related post you've been warned*

Ok this is a World of warcraft post through and through, so patch day was yesterday and all went smoothly in so far as the realms were up by 10am in the UK. I read the patch notes again for the tenth time, find that one of my shamans talents has been changed. Not complaining tho as they gave us all the talents points to spen again and i like the talent they replaced the old one with.
The big thing about this patch other than a new 10 man dungeon that i'm proably never gonna do although you never know (now to find more friends to help make the guild me and dave want a reality), is hat in this patch tehy have decreased the exp needed to level and we are geting more exp from kills and quests oh yeah, my shammy went up 1 level as did my main and my hunter went up 2. Ok so my main (Lvl 51 frost mage) was farming undead in western plaguelands for argent dwan rep and doing 1 quet chain around said undead but still it was fun, also my frostbolts crit for 1200 plus atm, ok so daves curse of elements that him puts on them probably helped but only a little.

Another cool thing about this patch is my arcan intellect spell has had its mana cost reduced significantly which im very happy about, i can now do it 3 times (me, daves warlock and his voidwalker) and have mana left. Means less time drinkin to regain mana and more time fighting :D
Also we can now right click to add items to trade windows and mail windows. Also we can send more than one item per mail, finally. The guild banks which have no effect on me yet, are cool, well the ogrimmar ones are ok, the undercity ones rock and look soo cool. Roll on making a guild.
All this means questing becomes more fun than it was and me and dave might hit lvl 60 maybe before xmas depending on how often we play. Now to get all my alts i play on my own to 30 atleast. They were supposed to be making it so that you could click on a recipe for equippable items and see them equipped but that doesn't seem to be working, although i'm not getting the "i can't equip that" voice so i dunno what they've done. As usual Blizzard are making more work for themselves but atleast they have keeped The Venture Co realm up on patch days which when i was at uni was a rare thing. It was the reason me and dave made alliance characters on another server.

I think thats enough WoW talk for now, but yayness for the patch.

xXx

Xmas

2007-11-13T13:35:00.000Z

Well ok its still november but as i'm doing a mini xmas with my friends on the 8th and 9th of december i've started to think about it. I realised something this year that i should have figured out last year and will be a shock for my rents if they ever read this. I actually enjoy the giving of presents and stocking, for we have them at mini xmas, as well as the big meal more than getting presents. I mean getting stuff is nice but i prefer it when something i've done puts a smile on someones face. This could explain why i'm doing a mini xmas for 7 people including myself and why the stocking im filling are going to probably end up costing more than the presents. i think it will be worth it anyway.

The only downside is the fact that xmas isnt cheap no matter how hard i try and if it wasn't for dave everyone would be getting penny chews. We agreed that i'd buy most of the presents and he'd buy the food, altho he will repay me half the present money when he can. i will be chipping in with the food as some of it is being bought when i visit. Also i've had to do the present buying online and amazon don't directly sell all of the stuff i want to get so postage costs have been a pain but its worth it i think. I ideally wnat to order all the presents this week but that would mean spending more money than im getting in nd i'm trying to avoid that so maybe one day i can get out of my overdraft.

Oh well, its all worth it and maybe in the new year someone will want to employ me. I hope so, me and dave want to have a weekend away in the summer and preferably not in a tent as much as it is fun i'd like to stay somewhere with a bed.

Aside from planning mini xmas and working out what to get the family i've been playing alil WoW, athough roll on patch 2.3 coz then leveling will get a little easier. its also started getting colder and the bathroom is freezing. Some of the new kitcen units have been built and they look nice, can't wait til the new year when its all done properly with a new floor to boot.

well i'm off got some laundry to sort out, washed my dressing gown so its ready to be lived in over the cold months, yay for furry dressing gowns, just need some nice slippers now.

take care all

xXx

back home

2007-11-08T10:37:00.000Z

Well i went to see dave for just over a week and it was great. I now miss him like mad but what's new. I got my mum a xmas pressie while i was down there and have started making preparations for the mini xmas i do for my friends. I now have the challenge of buying shed loads of presents with not alot of money, oh dear. I'll figure it out though, its mainly annoying because i am probably going to spend one fortnights jobseekers on xmas in one go. Wouldn't be so bad if it was spread out a little and also if dave could pay me back the money he owes and will owe (i'm buying his parents pressies for him plus we get joint pressies for our friends - means we can get a bit more expensive things). i know i'll get it by like the summer but still i'm trying to slowly work my way back to being in credit argh. oh well i like making my friends and family happy so it will be worth it.

It was good to be back in hafield, went to nandos again yum, went shopping in st albans which was cool, got to play on daves xbox 360, viva pinata yays, also oblivion and fable :)

Went to ikea yeasterday with the family, rich came too as he was needed for the moving of a fridge freezer and lifting the heavy boxes containing the new kitchen. Was a long day but meant i slept really well :) we have 95% of the new kitchen, ikea didnt have 2 bits in stock and theres still the floor to order.

i think that'll do for now, off to play a lil WoW and then i have college tonight at 5.

xXx

Yayness

2007-10-24T20:12:00.000+01:00

Well on friday i'm off to hatfield again for just over a week to see dave. Also today i managed to apply for 2 jobs and i have an application form for another. I'm not expecting them to get back to me, no one has so far but lest im trying. I'll admit i havent been trying as hard as i could but part of me is just wanting to stay in hatfield with dave. I figured that it would be too much hassle and soon enough if mum and dad allow he'll be here with m anyway after hes finished uni. I look forward to that.

I should really start to pack coz 2m ive got my course in the evening and i need to check my coursework for that at some point. I've also got some films i really should watch considering i borrowed them off dave atlest a month ago. oops. I'm really looking forward to seeing him, and making him some decent meals and trying to spoil him on a budget, hmm.

aside from that things are the same, im playing too much WoW although lately i have been playing hellgate london as i was invited to the later stages of beta, i'd say as its being released in nov, but i got to try it and i'm liking it so far. I think it will be a possible purchase once its cheaper and i aslo i wouldn't be a subscriber, having WoW is bad enough.

xXx

2007-10-17T14:51:00.001+01:00

He likes getting me yellow roses, this is the second lot he got me, there was also a bottle of wine in the room with these when i turned up but i drank that :D

This is baby ellie that dave got me for aou annivarsary :) soo soft

Below is the crystal rose that he got me and the note says "This rose, like my love for you shall never fade or die"

He has his sweet moments.

xXx

More positive?

2007-10-17T11:00:00.000+01:00

Well today i seem chirpy a bit, well im not mopping, yet anyway. I'm still missing dave loads, and i can't wait to see him again, which when i find out which week is half term, ill know when i can go see him and i might be able to stay for a week and a bit. Which would be cool as we'd get more quality alone time, rather than me trying to fit eveyone into the time and then feeling like i missed some time with him.

This visit i have cunning plans in place though, well i'm arranging some quality time with him and some quality time with anna which will also be spent shopping for items needed for the quality time with dave. I only need to get stuff because he doesn't have any candles and im not carting mine 200 miles especially as i hopefully will be taking daves Lorwyn cards with me too.
I'm hoping i get to meet up with liz again and maybe do lunch with kitty, which would be cool, and for those times when dave has lectures i have his xbox 360 to play with, we got fable to work so i might play that of viva pinata if hes got it for me.

Daves already said that he has a surprise for me that he picked up yesterday, now im curious and now i have to pick him one up to wind him up :)

aside from all that not much is happening, im playing far too much wow and now have 13 characters over 2 servers although one may be deleted. but we got matt back on our server, as well as andy, soon we'll be able to start a guild :) maybe that will stop all the guild invites we get, it wouldn't be so bad if they took the time to ask, they just invite you and we auto click decline, then again i auto click decline anyway oops.

I'm thinking i should go off and level my priest so that me and dave are both lvl 11 when we start again. Dunno what we're gonna do today, hmm oh well

take care all

xXx

Happy and sad things

2007-10-12T11:14:00.000+01:00

Well at the weekend i went to visit dave at uni. That was fun, also saw anna, matt, andy, sarah, jay, sam, kitty, liz and then most of psifa. So was a busy weekend but was good fun.
On saturday dave and i had our 1 year anniversary, we went and wandered round the galleria and went and saw surfs up. After that we went home and got changed and then went out to Bella Italia for a meal. The food was gorgeous as was the present dave had saved to give me at the restaurant. Its hard to describe in words so a piccy will be taken. He also got me short circuit dvd and singstar rock ballads, as well as a world of warcraft calander. He also got me a smaller version of the big cuddle elephant i got him and its soo soft and cuddly :)

I went to psifa on the monday which was cool, even though i'd forgotten how to play magic a lil but it soon came back to me. After we got back we decided to watch Howls Moving Castle, which was cool, and as the norm with anime a bit strange. I did doze a lil during some bits as it was like half 12, and as we were watching it in japanese with subtitles meant i missed a lil but i got the jist i think. Didn't finish watching it til half 1, oops. Good job i didnt have to catch the train til half one on tues.

It was really hard to leave, although i didn't cry as much as the last time thankfully, but i was sad and i miss him soo much. I miss uni in general, and all of my friends as a fair few are still there. I'm thinking of going to visit for maybe a week if we do have a week off on my course for half term, coz i can fit it in around signing on.

On the job front, i have heard nothing from coffee#1 which sucks coz i could actually do that. I have an application for tescos up the road, and im applying for tchibo, so its a case of keep trying.

Well i think thats enough for now, im off to try to run through a high lvl area (well im lvl 50 and the areas 53 - 65) just so i can up my skill in herbalism.

take care all

xXx

Things are good(ish)

2007-10-01T20:46:00.000+01:00

Well college started on thurs, and after 4 hrs of it i'm feeling positive about the course. It is interesting to study and practice the skills needed to be a counselor. last week we covered health and safety risks, and practiced how to construct and build a contract as it were with a client so that we are both safeguarded. Just been trying to do my homework for thurs and its more challenging than i first thought but its all good.
Been for an interview today at coffee#1, i think it went ok, and now im just waiting to see if they want to give me a trial shift. In many ways i do want a job, some income would be good and ok it'd only be a little more than jobseekers but every penny counts at the mo. It might mean that i get to spend less time visiting dave and everyone at uni tho and that is where my heart wants to be and not just coz of dave. I like the independence and at this exact moment im missing a psifa night, i will get to go to one maybe once a month but i loved the social life. Heck i miss alt nites (no matter what they try to change the name to) even tho the music did get a bit repetitive at times.
oh well least this weekend im seeing dave, just got a long thurs to get thru, coz not only do i have my course from 5 to 9 but i have to be up and in town for 10:40 for the jobseekers check up interview. Which means i need to be up at half 8 maybe earlier. Boy im gonna be tired by the time i get to college.

Roll on the weekend and mine and daves 1yr anniversary. Doesnt seem like its been a year.

take care all

xXx

College

2007-09-25T13:51:00.000+01:00

Well the college still doesn't know if my course is being run tonight or thursday. I've got to ring them up in soon. If it is today i need to be ready by half 2 and they said i should ring back at 2, heres hoping i dont get put on hold and shunted about departments again. I'm kinda hoping for thursday and i suspect it will be but we'll see. If it is thursday then thats good coz i have time to prepare an i won't be rushed. Also im hoping the psifa film night is then so that then dave and i will both be busy on thurs and we won't miss each other too much. Least when i start i'll have something to ground me and keep me focused, stop me moping hopefully but i'll probably still mope but a lil less.

On the plus side in a week and 2 days i get ot go see dave, and we get to have a date out to a very nice restaurant :) also hopefully see a few other mates and maybe go to psifa. I'm looking forward to seeing everyone and it will be fun, shame in some ways that i have to come home. but oh well its only like this til june. that sounds so far away and so not at the same time. Hopefully it'll go quickly once me and dave are both studying.

On the job front theres a few in town, im applying to coffee 1 again, oh joy. Theres a few xmas jobs and ill see if they will affect my jobseekers 2m. Also a temp job in peacocks but i will look again 2m when i sign on and see if i have any hope.

tis all for now, off to ring the college again *sigh*

xXx

Some thoughts

2007-09-21T09:23:00.000+01:00

Well ive been back home over a week now and i'm still missing dave. Hes got the internet now though so talking to each other is easier, hooray for skype. I am worried that he'll be to busy sitting at his pc to remember his friends and to go and have fun with them. I do feel like a distrction from uni life, even though he said that its ok. This ldr will be hard, specially as im trying to visit once a month but its only for a year, well til he finishes uni. Its weird knowing that he'll go to psifa and he's living with mates and im not there. Im also gonna miss psifa although i will go when i can. Him going to uni has had an impact on the ldr, which hasnt been helped by me feeling lonely as most of my mates are still at uni. I think that once he settles down when his course starts then ok i wont be able to play WoW with him all day but i'll know when im likely to see him online.

Aside from that jobs are thin on the ground altho the temp jobs for xmas should start appearing soon. I'm hopefully off to town later today even if the weather does look naff. Dad said that peacocks needed someone and im gonna try for coffee#1 again.

Tweekie our dog is poorly altho to look at her this minute you wouldn't think it. Shes needs to tablets a day and its up to me as mum and dad are in bruges (well later today they wil be), they spent last night in belgium. They took the train as mums not keen on flying. I hope they have a good time and mum doesn't push dad in a canal like she said she might.

I'd better go medicate the dog, put some proper clothes on (a dressing gown is not suitable for job hunting) and go to town before it starts tipping down with rain (good luck to me it is wales after all :P)

xXx

Weddings, university and life

2007-09-12T19:08:00.000+01:00

Ok its been awhile since my last proper blog, oops. Lets see whats happened then,
on the 1st sept my best mate rach got married and i was one of her bridesmaids and it was a great day if knackering. SHe looked so gorgeous but then she said me and em did too. Well i'll let you decide, the pics will be on facebook soon once i've nicked them off the pc downstairs. My bf took some of them and we were using my mums camera.
From then til the 5th me and dave were making the most of being together and also packing to go back to uni. On the 5th we made the long journey back to hatfield by train, also the underground was not fully working and i now have a dislike off the bakerloo line and its many steps, we had six bags/suitcases between us and it was not fun. We got to hatfield tho and all was good. The rest of daves stuff turned up on sat and hes pretty much unpacked all by now. I think me and him could have had more quality alone time but we would have felt rude coz anna was the only one there til the other 2 boys showed up on sunday. They don't have the internet yet but i hope they sort it soon.
I returned home yesterday as today is sign on day yippee. I had got used to saying goodbye to dave but this time i was crying 2 days before i left. I think its because i know that hes going to have psifa to go to and hes got all his friends there. Most of my friends are there too and i feel so detached coz im far away. I feel im missing things with dave, that there are moments we cant share coz of the distance, makes me a lil sad. That and if i do get a job then my once a month visits that im planning will be short and sweet. They would be for 2 -3 days rather than 5 which sucks but i do need the money more. Its made me realise how hard this year is gonna be and how i feel like a part of me is missing because dave is so far away.

oh well, the sooner i get on with it the better, time will fly, it should do its daves final year and it won't be long til he'll prob come to visit and not leave. Its likely, and would be nice, just don't know what mum and dad would say hmm.

I think thats enough for now.

xXx

an quick update

2007-09-12T10:04:00.000+01:00

i'm still alive, just been busy as daves was down, there was the wedding and then moving dave back to uni. Now things are back to normal i shall post a longer blog later, at the moment im getting ready to go sign on and then job hunt (wish me luck ha ha).

xXx

the weekend

2007-08-21T10:37:00.000+01:00

well it started with going to town to meet rach and emma and get our hair done. W e had a trial for the wedding adnw e all looked lush afterwards. It was rachs hen party and a pamper party and meal had been planned. Well teh pamper party was fab, all 3 of us had back massages which i could have quit happily had bout 4 more of atleast, it was soo relaxing. Her mum and aunt had facials and were glowing afterwards. We all just wanted to sleep but we had a meal to get dolled up for. We went to a very nice local hotel for the meal, and the food was absolutely gorgeous. I had carrot and cumin soup, followed by lamb on creamy mash with a helping of cheesy leeks and chocolate mousse for pudding. It was filling but soo yummy.
After we had some tea we went back to the house, where bob marley was put on some dancing and games were played. We had pin teh dan on the egyptian which was something to see. Then questions and forfeits were done. Basically if rach got a qu wrong she did a forfeit but if she got it right one of us did a forfiet. Also those doing a forfeit had to wear a cleopatra wig. Oe of the forfiets which i dont think will ever be forgotten was "start every sentence with I'm wearing (nsert colour here) pants" Rachs mum ended up with that one which was just hilarious especially when things like "I'm wearing white pants and its not right" were said. It was just good fun. A quality do and one that ideas will be nicked form for emmas do no doubt and mine when i get there.
On my return home on sunday after a lovely sausage casserole at rachs, i found mum having a bit of a panic as rich and his gf had decided to join us for dinner, the dinning table had to be extended and a chair wiggled out under the table. There was also only 4 toblerone mousse to eat and five people for dinner, but that worked out in the end as one of us had birthday cake. Was a lovely meal and many tales from mine and richs childhood were recounted.
At about half nine i managed to speak to dave again, who hd sent me a free gift on facebook and a stealth message on skype. He'd missed me something chronic. I got to experience what he felt yesterday for a bit when he went to sheffield. It amazing how knowing atleast that their on/near thier pc can make them not seem so far away.
Well daves turning up 2m yays and ive got him for atleast a week and a half maybe a bit more if i go back to hatfield with him.
I think thats enough for now
xXx

Creativity

2007-08-13T19:10:00.000+01:00

Well yesterday i just picked up a pencila and started drawing, i was bored and theres always a stack of paper on my desk for KOS (kill on sight list for WoW) and workign out how much money i don't have. Yesterday tho i was taken with an urge to draw, i didnt know what but a quick google search gave me some ideas. I drew a cute thing for dave, a teddy bear, eeyore, a rose, grr, attempted a turtle and a pic of me and dave cutsey style. Well i tried and some arent bad, and i enjoyed doing it. It was relaxing and creative, and i liked it, normally my relaxation is games or books or a walk if its nice. I've been wanting to do something creative for awhile and it was nice to find something i could do with little prep. I do occasionally try to do a bit of creative writing but that requires my mind to be in the right place and it hasn't been there for a bit.

I'm hoping i keep drawing, the sweet things i do for dave often rely on others (except the cooking i suppose) and it would be nice if one day the picture in my head that i would like to see on paper i could actually draw. Maybe one day.

Aside form that im not back at my local docs officially, im still jobless but as in my previous blog im hopeful, as my overdraft gets less more option become available, learning to drive being one. Dad has always said that he would pay for half so we're working on a buy one get one free type of scheme from my perspective. I buy a lesson and then the next ones dads to pay. Now to find a driving instructor. Least its cheaper here than it would have been at uni. I'm gonna try for a lesson a week to start with.

Other than that not much else is going on.

xXx

Hope

2007-08-10T20:27:00.000+01:00

Well today has seen a rise in my spirits, im not feeling as hopeless as i have been. I've started writing my CV and ive just been thinking about my career path a little more positively. I know that i will be skint for like the next 5 years while i get the qualifications and experience i need but i know it will be worth it. Having had counselling myself i know that it will be worth the effort if i can go on to help people get past their problems

I get the feeling that i will be doing a fair bit of voluntary work in the next few years and its just a case of me getting to the point where i can do it and not be too worried about finances. I keep trying for part time /full time jobs in town, my latest attempt will be holland and barrats once my cv is done. My best bet is a part time job as hopefully if my interview goes well on the 24th i'll be studying counselling skills and practice part time at a local college. I'm looking forward to it as i'll finally be able to sink my teeth into the topic that i have wanted to study for ages. I love psychology and it fascinates me and counselling is another step along it.

Sometimes i wonder if i'm really cut out for counselling, most of my friends either think i'll be great at it or can definitely see me doing it. Hopefully doing the part time course will help me either decide its not right or alay my fears and make me realise my true potential. I've also been considering subscribing to a publication called Therapy Today, which as far as i've looked is one of the few dedicated to counsellors and psychotherapists. I could get that and a journal for free if i join the BACP. Either way at the moment its money i don't have but its def in the pipeline.

I've had a positive day overall and i hope it continues, i'm thinikng of starting driving lessons soonish which also makes me feel happier. I can just about get one a week depending on what i do. Its not much but its a start and thats better than nothing.

xXx

LDRs

2007-08-09T23:12:00.000+01:00

Well they suck really, unless your an uber individual person i suppose. Im not, im a cuddly watching dvds type and its just not the same when your boyfriends 200 miles away. I can handle i just dont actually want to. One of lifes annoying necessities. Its hard to be so far apart, i mean yes we skype everyday and play WoW and guildwars together and that but you can have too much of it. Some nights we rarely say much to each other and if im feeling down it makes me less likely to say anything anyway. I feel tied to my pc just coz in a way it feels like im closer to him even if i do get bored of the internet.

This is one reason why i really want a job/course to break up the routine. Then that would be routine as well but least id be getting out more and maybe different things would happen. I know that in a year we'll try to be together atleast, don't know how successful thats gonna be though. its a long and hard road to where we want to be and i know its worth it but occasionally it gets you down and you wonder why.

I think the hardest part is when we say goodbye and i don't know when i'll see him again, least when i know i can start a countdown. Not knowing seems to make the time drag on for longer, making it harder still.

Just a reflection of whats in my thoughts at the mo, just got to keep looking to the future.

xXx

missing things

2007-08-07T10:41:00.000+01:00

lately its sunk in what being at home is like, not that its a bad thing its just i miss being at uni and being independent. Its nice seeing mum and dad and that but i think since ive had a taste of independence i want it more now, i kinda like having a place to call my own and strangly enough i like doing household things. It adds some routine to my day, at uni i was always thinking - well after this lecture ill have to go home take the laundry out and do the dishes before dinner etc etc. Now at home im thinking - what game shall i play or what dvd to watch. i do still have laundry to worry about but not as often now.

I miss psifa loads as well, all the guys just playing magic the gathering or whatever and sharing foods and having a laugh and watching films and what we've found on youtube. Uni had its up and downs but i really enjoyed it and its sad to know that ill only be a visitor from now on, atleast at hertfordshire.

Due to me being at uni for 3 years i now have to reregistar with the docs which is a pain, but if i dont do it now ill have to do it later and as i need a repeat prescription its best to do it now, even if i do have to go into town 3 times in the space of a week. That scarily enough is the highlight of the week. least it gets me out of the house.

xXx

tired

2007-08-01T22:11:00.000+01:00

Well daves gone back to donny again and won't be back til the end of the month, i wasn't as sad as last time, i know i'll see him soon enough and i need to get used to it really. Once hes back at uni i have no idea how often i'll get to see him, im hoping i can visit once a month but that depends on having a job/money.

Still a lack of jobs going in town, and the card shop have yet to get back to me but hopefully they will. The websites the job centre aren't as helpful as i'd like, i'd be alright if i wanted to move away and could afford to but that wasn't in the plan. I am looking into more local volunteeering options but i think ive become too disconnected from here in a way. Oh well we'll just see what happens.

I'm tired mainly coz of early mornings and late nights, i live in hope of a lie in, even if it would make me feel naff. My days seem so empty and lacking of late and i wish i had more creative hobbies although there is one now i think of it that maybe i'll take up again. I'll save that for another day tho.

Roll on the end of the month when dave pops back and theres rachels wedding to look forward to. Its gonna be good even if at the mo the makeup is a lil up in the air but that can easily be sorted, at the end of the day we can always do it ourselves.

I'm currently making my way through the 6th harry potter book and hopefully 2m i will be starting the 7th book at last. My hours on WoW will probably go up this week since daves left. I could probably waffle on a lil more but im not feeling 100% at the mo.

xXx

Fed Up

2007-07-19T22:10:00.000+01:00

Well i'm still jobless, and theres very little going in town. Its doing my head in only leaving the house to sign on or if dads going to town. I got kinda used to going out to psifa and the like at uni and to be stuck i all the time sucks. Also the weathers been rotten so i haven't been able to go for all the walks i like to, does mean i've had plenty of time to play WoW although that may not be a healthy thing.

I've managed to read a few books, Who Me? by Jenny sullivan, a collection of comic tales of fantasy, Neil Gaimans Neverwhere. I've still got phillip pullmans His dark materials, 2 ben elton books and numerous others that are sitting on my shelves, several of which are my parents which have been recommended. That should keep me quiet for a bit and break up the gaming nicely.

The job centre did give me a list of websites to look at but to no avail at the moment although i have not looked through them all yet. I am applying for a part time job in a card shop but yet again the references are a sticking point, why do they insist on wanting previous employers and why did mine have to go and shut down :(

Not much else has happened, oh the bank has taken away my interest free overdraft now which is just great, lets here it for their graduate service. It'd be alrite if i paid them 9.95 a month but i cant really afford to. The really annoying thing is that they only changed thier standard graduate service this year, if id graduted before may i'd still be fine and interest free, argh its annoying.

Anywho thats enough blogging for one day.

xXx

Its late and here we are

2007-07-14T00:27:00.000+01:00

Well i now have an interview at the college at the end of august so heres hoping it goes well. If it does i will be a small step closer to the job i have wanted to do since i was 14, even if i didn't know what it was then.
As a plus note today, one of daves grades got put up to a pass which is always good. Hes coming to wisit in two weeks and i can't wait to see him. Its only been a week and i miss him soo much. I'm coping better than i was though, not so many tears anymore. Been trying to keep myself busy, been playing too much WoW as my xfire profile shows well, also been watching firefly and am half way through now. Got my amazon rental dvds to watch and now that my Wii is set up i'm hoping to complete zelda at some point.
My room has now been tidied to pretty much teh state it will remain in til i leave. This is mainly due to having too much stuff, But i'm sentimental at times and i've chucked at least 3 bin bags worth of stuff out already. Also when dave visits im not sure where hes going to sleep as i cannot be bothered to unfold the futon, that and its so uncomfy that we may as well sleep on the floor.

Thats bout it for now, i'm ready for bed so i will go read a little and then sleep.

xXx

Well its official

2007-07-09T13:29:00.000+01:00

I have a 2:2 BSc (Hons) psychology degree and i'm unemployed. Oh joys, well the degrees good, just wish i had some decent money coming in. Jobseekers finally gave me some so i'm not as in debt as i was but my WoW subscription does come out this month :( ans as you can tell from my xfire profile (for those on facebook use the link to get to my blog proper) i've been playing far too much.

Aside from that the planned trip to manchester for make up trials for my mates wedding has been cancelled, which sucks but is not the end of the world. Hopefully me and her can meet up at some point soon, i'll go mad just staying in this house, with only skyping dave and msn to keep me sane. Not that i can afford to do anything else mind but oh well.

Another thing is that dad has with my permission put me in to do a course at a local college on counselling skills. This would probably help me in the long run altho i am worried how much it will cost and when i will be doing it if all goes well and they let me. Its all up in the air at the mo, but hopefully something will come up.

Not much else has been happening really, just been chilling, getting bored on the internet and currently deciding what to watch while dave is offline coz hes worried about a storm thier having in Donny. Maybe some firefly, i dunno.

xXx

A reflection maybe

2007-06-30T09:41:00.000+01:00

Well since my last post i have turned 21, who would have believed it, i still don't. It was a great birthday, went out for a lovely meal with the family, meet richards girlfriend. The food was lovely and the pudding was gorgeous, it was meringue with cream and ice cream and banana and a toffee sauce, yum. I rather enjoyed it and it was nice to see my bro again.
Dave who is staying with me at the moment has had to stay a little longer than expected due to flooding in doncaster which means him getting home is a challenge. So he is thinking of leaving next thurs altho he'd prefer to stay with me all summer but that would not earn him any money. Its nice him still being here, i'm going to miss him soo much when he leaves. He has bought me a large cuddly toy to hug when hes gone and if i figure out how i'll put a piccy up :P (for those on facebook it'll get put up there).
Also my provisional results have been published on studynet (the uni internet portal for students thing) and i got all C's this year, a C1 for my dissertation which i'm proud of. This means that i should get a 2:2 overall and i'm chuffed with that, a 2:1 would have given me a better chance at my masters but if i do relevant work experience then it should be ok.
It's been weird being back home and i don't think it'll sink in til sept when dave leaves to got to uni, hes popping back at the beginning of sept to go to a wedding with me, thats when i think it'll hit me that im no longer a student and that will be weird. I had a good time at uni, made some excellent friends, who i will make an effort to keep in touch with. (Liz next year i'm going to cook you a meal, ive tried your cakes and now you can try my mains) I will be popping back to uni as dave is there and hes living with anna and that, hopefully i'll get to see liz too. I will miss uni and everything that goes with it, part of me wants to go straight to my masters but i think that the time out will be good for me, will be better when i get a job but thats going to be a challenge in itself but hopefully something will turn up.
On another note, we went to ikea on wed and it was fun, well i got a new desk, the sink mum and dad want was in the sale altho that caused no end of trouble, dad had to go back thurs to pick it up coz they tried to give us 2 wrong sinks and then told us it was in the self serve area of the warehouse but they needed the forklift which can't be used in the self serve area when there are customers in the store. oh boy. But we do have the right sink now and my desk is good, my printer will finally get to live on a shelf, its not gonna be on the desk as its too fat but due to the way my room i now there is a handy shelf for it to live on. I hate to say it but once daves gone the final touches can be made to my room, especially as the futon in bed form will go back to being a sofa and i will have floor space again. I've told him hes sleeping on the floor next time he comes, the futons way too much effort.
I think thats about it for now, i'm off to be sad and play a lil WoW while i wait for dave to get up, i might play a lil cabal instead, hmm.
xXx

well its been a week

2007-06-22T13:25:00.000+01:00

Well my room is tidy, just need to get rid of the empty boxes. It just about all fits in, although i found out i have more shoes than i remember. My pc is set up but not on the network as of yet as i have been told two different vesions of the password although i think the one my bro told me today might just be right, i will try it out later to see. fingers crossed coz then not only can i blog more, i can play WoW and cabal online now that is has free to play accounts.
I still havent finished filling in an application form as im stuck as to who to put as references, its always a sticking point especially as i havent had a job for 3 years and the last place i worked no longer exists. oh dear. my tutors and that at uni have probably all run away and probably would say no anyway although i am trying.
That aside things are good, i should get some money next week as i got a letter yesterday saying that the jobseekers claim had gone through so now its just a matter of time.
Tomorrow is my birthday which i'm looking forward to although im not expecting much, a nice family meal would be nice but i havent been let in on the plans yet what a surprise.
Yesterday went to cardiff to meet up with anna and go to techniquest. Was good fun even if it was full of schoolkids. Got a few bits and pieces from the giftshop, dave got my a bracelet that is very nice. Then did a bit of shopping in town, dave got a memory card so he can take hes ffxii save home with him. I got another filmore jigsaw puzzle, so many things in the disney store i like but cannot afford. They had a nice sized sticth cuddly toy but he was £14 so he had to stay there and i shall just have to live with my small one i have. Twas a tiring day and then to end it had a bad tummy so went to be bout 11.
Thats bout all for now, off to look at cuddly eeyore with dave on eBay, he was gonna buy one yesterday when we went to cardiff but £40 was a bit much, but it would be nice to have a big cuddly toy to hug once hes gone :(

And calm

2007-06-15T18:00:00.000+01:00

Well nearly, my room is definitly nearly livable in, only a few boxes left to go, i can reach all parts of my room now which is good. As far as jobs go, i still haven't got one, will be applying for one thought and i will be on jobseekers once its gone through. The bank said no to extending my overdraft funnily enough even though it should have gone up to £1500 in my third year anyway. Thier reviewing it in july/august anyway and it may be put up then as it will automatically become a graduate account.
Things are not so argh now, and once i get my new desk then all will be good and i can set up my pc finally and won't have to borrow the family one, my email checking ocd can return yay, also need to put the games consoles somewhere to i suppose.

Other than that not much happening, am going to techniquest next thurs yay, and maybe watching a film after but depends on if we can drag dave out of techniquest.

thats all for now :)

xXx

Argh

2007-06-12T23:38:00.000+01:00

I'll try to keep it brief and concise but no promises.

I am looking for a job, which i need to learn to drive and now i've found out, upgrade my bank account to a graduate one.
My room is not yet livable in except to sleep, 2 rooms stuff into 1 room = nightmare.
I have to go the job centre 2m as well as a small list of other things which means 2m is busy and my room will stay unpacked til the end of the week no doubt.
The bps are smelly as they won't let me join unless i get 2 other graduate or higher members to sign my form, which means travelling which i can't afford.
Part from that things are good, and yay.
The world sucks as money is too essential to living. I'm prob only saying that as i have none but still, it sucks.

Anyway that was brief, hopefully in the next week i can blog how i will prob have new glasses, be on jobseekers and have extended my overdraft (fingers crossed).
Now i'm tired and i have to be up in the mornign to go run arouns town, yay.

xXx

Fed up

2007-06-03T14:41:00.000+01:00

My house is a tip, and yes it is partly my fault but still, the kitchen floor was a state as were the work surfaces. i've just finished cleaning them as well as the hob. I'm going no where near the oven tho. I'm just fed up of the constant mess, maybe i'm just meh as its my last week here i don't know. Also i have to be prepared for a bbq 2m and my landlord hasn't dropped the lawnmower round yet. Maybe the heats getting to me. Argh, i just want a tidy house that i can slob in.
On the plus side we have some boxes from asda to pack stuff in which is handy, daves out at the galleria trying to find gaffa tape so they don't fall apart. I just want to chill out and play harvest moon or one of the other many games i must complete. Also doing alot of laundry while its nice.
As may be obvious my thoughts are all over the place and i just want to curl in a ball somewhere but i can't. hopefully once i've finished tidying and helping dave pack i should feel a bit better, i hope so.
Anyway i should go sort the living room out, daves hoovering it when he gets back.

xXx

I'm finished

2007-06-01T10:27:00.000+01:00

Well i had my last exam yesterday - went ok i think although maybe not as good as the others. But we'll see sometime after mid june according to studynet.
Now i'm free to be a proper student fo a week before i return home. I'm having a few drinks with some mates to celebrate Annas birthday, we're starting at the ele (pub on campus) but as the summer ball is today the drinking may end up back at my house as i volunteered it. Tomorrow is a shopping and bowling trip to stevenage and if i'm not careful dave will spend far to much money, i dread to think how much my birthday pressies have cost so far, i know its atleast £35 as i know which necklace he was gonna buy me. Hopefully it'll be ok. I've hit my limit of £800 overdrawn so oops, thats been upped as i cant go a week without spending money, otherwise dave pays for everything and hes probably not going to be working as much as me (fingers crossed for me getting a job).
Sunday will be spent getting the food and booze for my bbq on monday - yay. I can't believe i'm gonna be 21 in 22 days, this last year has gone soo quick its unbelievable.
Next week after monday will be spent packing what i can, going to the park as i have a kite to fly - i'm such a child, and just generally not doing much. Oh and making sure anna doesn't loose her sanity, as only her and the 2 chinese students are left in her house on campus and they have decided to take over the kitchen and they leave it a mess so shes not happy.
Gonna get some boxes so that dave can pack - most of his stuffs going into storage so some sturdy plastic boxes are needed, the best we have tho is cheap shop boxes so they might just last the summer.
Anyway i've got things to do so i'd better do them - i need to tidy up before a bunch of physics/astrophysics descend on my house to get drunk.

xXx

Roll on November

2007-05-29T11:22:00.000+01:00

I'm going to see the legend that is Bill Bailey in Cardiff on teh 25th nov, i can't wait, my bf is coming with me so yay its all good.
And this is what i do while killing time before an afternoon exam, will read the notes again before lunch not that im sure it'll help. On the plus side i'm not panicking, my friends have told me that i cna do it enough times that i think part of me believes them. That and i managed to get to the third year which would suggest i know something. Just a shame i seem to grasp topics better the year after i've done them. Also a shame i can't resit any of these exams :S
Least i'm prepared ish i just can't wait til thurs at around half 11 as it'll all be over then. The end of my undergraduate uni life (unless it all goes horrible wrong and i do another one in something else). It's weird coz i most of my friends are either staying here coz they are 1st/2nd years, are repeating modules or doing a master, go you liz :D, i kow alot of people i know on the course are leaving but i feel like a minority, like i'm the weird one coz i'm leaving. Strange.
That aside all is good, gettign drunk friday will be fun even if everyone may end up at mine depending on when the ele shuts, my overdraft is going to cry on sat (unless dave is feeling particualrly generous) with a shopping/bowling trip to stevenage. Least its only bout £3 to get there on the train.
I've got most of the supplies for the bbq on monday - just need food and maybe a tad more alcohol :)

Anyway, i'm off to read notes and try to remember how to speel names - e.g Dijkersthuis, couldn't have sensible names oh no.

xXx

response to my bro

2007-05-26T00:36:00.000+01:00

yes i have heard of the outdoors, i went out tonite so ner (i do wander alot round hatfield when avoiding work - any excuse to go to asda).
Right got that out of my system, saw PotC 3 and it was cool, very flashy as one might expect from the third in a trilogy but enjoyable none the less.
Had my exam this morning and it went better than expected, it always worry me when i right 2 maybe 3 pages and everyone else has atleast 3 to 5 pages, i've managed to pass so far so fingers crossed.
My parents sent me an e-card which was wishing me good luck which was cool, altho mildy embarassing and teary at the same time especially as my bf and my mate anna were there to see too.
Not much else to report, the shopping list for my bbq is getting longer and more expensive (mainly due to us wanting one of every type of alcohol asda can offer). Now to invite enough people to it so dad doesn't fill the vvan with bottles alone :P

Think thats all for now.

x

xfire

2007-05-24T14:48:00.000+01:00

Just a short note to say, you can now see how sad i am in regards to playing pc games as i've put my xfire miniprofile thing on my blog. Yay go me, and i've actuall probably played more WoW than that its just xfire wasn't open oops.
Enjoy
x

Exams

2007-05-24T14:22:00.000+01:00

Well my 1st ones tomorrow and by next thursday i will have done all 3 and will no longer be a student. Its a scary prospect and part of me is sad to leave this part of my life, i've liked having my independence and i'm going to miss the friends i've made soo much. I'll try to keep in touch, with the internet its not as hard as it used to be.
Its scary to think that for the first time in 3 years im not 100% sure whats going to happen or where i'm going to end up. I have my ideal plan to do the masters, which i do hope i can do. But un til i either find a uni thats not expensive or far away or wants me to be 23 i have to work. I should have more luck now that i can do full time and won't dissappear at the end of the summer but some relevant work experience is needed and thats the challenging part. I know i'm not good with changes and major milestones but going from uni to work is one of them and hopefully all will go smoothly.
Its still strange to think i won't be coming back to hatfield - well not as a student anyway any more and it hasn't really sunk in yet, im sure when it comes to september when i stay in wales and my bf goes back to uni it will. Its a shame these thoughts have distracted me from revision altho i think i've managed to do more than usual and also more regularly than usual to. I still don't think im prepared for tomorrow, will do a bit more this afternoon, try and get a few more studies in my head. Tonight i'm going to psifa to relax before tomorrow. I'm not prepared at all fro thursdays and i can only waffle in regards to the stress exam on tues at the mo.
Lets hope it rains at the weekend, its cruel having nice weather adnd having to stay in and revise.
On a less serious note, im off to see pirates of the caribbean (sp?) tomorrow for my mates birthday, will be a nice way to unwind after the exam. After the 31st may lots of drinking, merriment and spending of the overdraft will occur, as theres a bbq to attend for my birthday, a shopping/bowling/cinema trip to stevenage where some gothic clothing maybe acquired now i know they have the indoor market place.
There is the challenge of packing yet to come, and i have to sort my room out so that all of daves stuff thats currently in it will not be in it when his parents come on the 9th to put most of his belongings in storage. I'm still not sure the plans for my return to wales as my mate anna needs a lift and dave is returning with me :S

This turned into a bit of a mini essay of a blog, but as i haven't done one for a bit and am not likely to til end of next week it seems justified.

x

Revision

2007-05-10T16:56:00.000+01:00

Well thats what i'm supposed to be doing, its not going very well tho, but i'm trying.
The weekend was good, got some booster packs for the mirrodin and darksteel sets of Magic, got some tops and had a very nice meal when i met daves sister.
Was daves birthday yesterday and we went shopping, then in the evening we went to nando's which was cool, i tried some of my mates cheesecake and now im going back just for the puddings. We all went to the nearby arcade and i got dragged onto the dance machine with dave altho i did do better than him. Dave won some cute cuddly toys for pretty much all teh girls there so my desk now has atleast 4 smal furry things on it now.
My fat pack still hasn't turned up but fingers crossed for 2m, i swear the postmans forgotten bout our house.
Thats bout it for now, all that i can think of anyway. Need to go off and do dinner as we're meeting my mate at 7 and we need to be on time today.

x

Doncaster

2007-05-04T08:37:00.000+01:00

Well i'm to the boyfrineds parents place again in doncaster surprisingly given the title, theres his birthday next week and his sisters boyfriedns 30th this sat so we're going up for the bbq thier having. Least the train journey is only bout 2 hrs unlike the 3 and a half it is to get home. Will give me a chance to finish reading Eldest at last, started it at xmas but i just don't feel like reading as much when im at uni which sucks.
This morning will be spent mostly packing, having a shower and chillin, dave has lectures til 1 so we're not getting the train til like half 2. I wasn't supposed to get up this early today but between my bladder and my bf it was hard not too, does give me more time to be organised and enjoy my morning cup of tea.
I got my Coldsnap fat pack yesterday, for those who don't know i play Magic the Gathering and Coldsnap was a block of cards they released.
Find out more here, http://www.wizards.com/default.asp?x=mtgcom/arcana/1083
Futuresight the most recent block was released yesterday and hopefully daves and mines fatpacks are in the post as i type. Theres a card shop in Doncaster that we might pop into to buy the theme decks and any other cards that take our fancy.

Anyway i'm off to make myself some tea and check my auction on WoW.

xXx

And relax

2007-04-27T09:30:00.000+01:00

Well the project has been handed in, 40 pages of research although whether it can get me a good grade is another matter. I don't find out til august i think.
I've had my last lecture ever, well i'm supposed to be there at 10 but i'm not going as its the revision lecture and i'll just fall asleep. On the plus side my last lecture was a revision lecture by my fav lecturer on a topic i really enjoy. Topics in forensic and criminal psyhcology. My mate liz was saying that she was aiming to do 4 hours of revision a day, which is an acheivable target for even the laziest students (and theres only so much WoW u can play) and compared to my usually revison technique (the week before the exam or gap inbetween exams) its gotta be a better plan. 3 exams and im no longer a student :S
I'm relaxing til monday tho, and tidying the house as due to me focussing on my project so much my room and the downstairs looks a bit of a mess. The living room has turned into a wardrobe and under the staris is a mess and the kitchen needs a good clean, and why on earth is carpet tiles a good idea in a kitchen - just a pain in the ass to clean. Have to hover it like every week,least on the wood floor at home just get the brush out, done. Hover - def too much effort considering the state hobs and surfaces get in sharing with 2 others (well 4 others if we include my bf and sam who stays 2/3 nights out of ever 7).
I now have season 2 of House to watch - yay, thanks to liz again for having some quality dvds, liz u rock and i'm gonna miss u next year.
I found out i don't have to leave til the 17th of june altho its likely i'll go back the 16th, as my dad has to pick me up and i think he'd prefer to spend fathers day chilling than being a long distance taxi.
Well i think thats enough rambling for now, back to my morning cup of tea and wandering the internet a bit.
x

coursework

2007-04-22T15:10:00.000+01:00

Well its nearly done, i say that i still have to finish my project and then probably rewrite most of it 2m after seeing my tutor but its gatting there.
I now know when my exams are - 25th, 29th and 31st of may, that should be fun, normally i can only revise one topic at a time but im gonna have to divide my time if i've any chance of getting a 2:2, but its all over soon and then into the big world of work for a year or two.
As a side note - watched eragon the other night - not a bad film, keeps the spirit of the book even if it does take a lot out. If maybe they'd made it 2hrs, maybe 2 and a half they might have managed a bit more but still an enjoyable film but if you've read the book don't expect too much from it.
Also showed my boyfriend taxi (the good french original version) not the silly american one (imo i have only seen the trailer but when i se it in full i'll prob still have the same opinion). He enjoyed as its just a great film and he (even though hes not into cars in anyway really) still fancied getting a peugeot 406 afterwards. Now to show him the second one so we can watch the third one which my bro got me for xmas but have been waiting til daves caught up with me to watch. Damn degree getting in the way of having fun.
anyway, back to said coursework, got to get a fianl draft for 2m and i havent even finished the results yet or started the discussion argh.

the end is near

2007-04-20T13:11:00.000+01:00

Well i've nearly finished writing my results up and then its just waffling to fill in the word limit. I'm soo tired so data analysis is not good at the mo but it has to be done. Currently waiting for dave to finish his work so we can get lunch. I mite even have to have sugar in my tea to wake me up which is bad. Hopefully it'll get done tho.
Went to st albans yesterday and got a charm bracelet abd dave got me 2 charms which was nice. We were gonna get guess who but we're both skint which sucks, even when i get my loan im still skint argh.
but enough rambling i need food so off to lunch i go.

man im tired

2007-04-12T14:34:00.000+01:00

Well im in the lrc doing data analysis that i should have done last week, im knackered as my new duvet is too warm and i spent 4 hrs yesterday travelling. My shoulders hurt coz my cases were heavy even tho i didnt have to carry them too far, except at kings cross, why is platform 11 soo far away from the tube exit.
Came back to find a fixed light aswitch, but a soaked thru carpet in the toilet, not sure why, thought it was leaking from the flush handle but put a bucket under it and nothing. It must know im watching it. Told the landlord so maybe in 2 weeks it'll get looked at. Theres mould on the carpet but surprisingly its glued to the floor rather than not being attacehd at all which means i cant take it up argh. I feel better now.
Anyway, the coursework is going ok, i have my data all ready and the analysis won't take long once ive got the right notes with me. I've dyed my hair the purplely aubergine colour i like so all is good.
Going out tonight for my mates 21st, going to nandos so that'll be good, also be good to see her again as its been bout 2wks. What will i do once i've finished uni.
Gonna do a bit more work before going home and having a muffin and a mini milk yum.
I'll prob rant /waffle more, im doing coursework so its a good way to distract myself, that and facebook.

xXx

Life = Coursework

2007-03-28T09:21:00.000+01:00

Yep its that time of year where all i do is coursework, it sucks, but after today i only have to do it when i want, my tutor is not here to harass me and its the hols next week. I will do work over the hols but i will also have time to chill out play games, maybe more world of warcraft, watch some movies, spend time with family and friends etc.
I did a roaast on sunday for 6 people, that was fun, it was good and was very nice, one of my mates got absolutely trashed tho so next time we mite try to keep him a bit more on the sober side.
Not much else has been happening, im going home back to wales on saturday for a bit, give ,my mum her slightly delayed mothers day and birthday pressies.
Been watching House M.D and its brilliant, hugh laurie rocks, its not your stereotypical medical drama/comedy, its got something that just makes u want to watch more and enjoy it most importantly. Give it ago and see.

Thats all for now

xXx

Hot Fuzz and more

2007-02-23T12:52:00.000Z

Well on wed i saw hot fuzz with my bf and some mates, all i can say is it rocks, i didnt laugh as much as i could of but i wasnt feeling 100% that day so nevermind. Simon Pegg has done it again, and for those of u who have seen spaced there are atleast 2 of the cast from that in it other than simon obviously.
Been trying to do coursework and failing, the software just doenst want to work but im spending most of 2moro putting the data in in a way that doesnt cause it to crash, it could take some time.
I'm cooking a roast on sunday which shud be good, havent had a roast in ages so that shud be cool.
Not much else going on really, playing world of warcraft which cud explain the lack of coursework completion, ah well ill get there, despite my laziness this degree is important to me.

x

life

2007-02-15T10:12:00.000Z

Well as my last post mentioned i saw pursuit of happyness last week. I think its a class film, and its will smith in a serious role which he can play well. It nearly made me and my mates cry in a few places, and the end is an emotional one. Overall a good film not sure id but it but its def a possibility. Went out on tues to the font for an alt nite, was a good nite, bit quiet music was the usually mix of unknown stuff to me, and well kown stuff, was a bit on the meh side in that respect. But my friends were there and i managed to see some people i hadnt seen in ages damn uni work getting in the way. My mate kitty was having a bit of an up and down nite due to her boyfriend but i managed to cheer her up i think. I ended up walking her home to make sure she got home ok and then i ended up staying the night as it ended up being 4 in the morning and her and her flat mates wouldnt let me walk home alone. I keep forgetting that yes i may be older than them im still at risk in hatfield, if i was a bloke itd be less of a problem. Altho funnily enough in my forensics module we found out that more men are victims of crime than women.
I had a lovely valantines even if 2 of my mates were round co they werent getting a lift home til 6. I was knackered anyway, only had 3 hours sleep. I got flowers for the first time, the burning crusade expansion and the lotr extended box set, plus a cuddly toy and choc. Its just like christmas.
Now that the fun is over i need to go to uni to set up my experiment which could take a few hours at least. Least it gives me something to do, now i just hae to hope someone is in the room so i can use the pc.

jen

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Films

2007-02-04T11:25:00.000Z

Well ive been seeing a few this week, on wednesday i saw dreamgirls, not something i would normally go to see at the cinema but im glad i did. I enjoyed the storyline and the songs, altho some did go on a bit to long. Not bad overall and if you like musicals you'll enjoy it.
On thursday it was the psifa societys film night and we saw terminator 2 which is a classic that everyone sees atleast once. Good old bit of action and arnie doing what he does best from the films ive seen of him. Was good fun even if i was a bit tired.
Tonight im seeing the pursuit of happyness, which no doubt i will blog about later. Its got will smith in it so im happy anyway.
Aside from me not doing work, ive been going to lectures, 6hrs a week i love it, playing yet more world of warcraft, and trying to get a meeting with my project supervisor, which i now have thankfully, i might actually get to do this project before the hand in date.
I went to St Albans yesterday with dave and anna and spent probably more tha i should, but i got bath crayons so im happy, gotta love childhood. Bought some magic cards, couple of books, a ring for my boyfriend who also bought me the same ring, it wasn't even the ones we originally wnated to get but its was pretty and they had only 2 and they were perfect fits and aslo cheaper.
Not much else is going on at the mo, so ill wander off and do many other pointless things.

Jen
x

Coughs

2007-01-23T12:44:00.000Z

Well my fever broke last thurs after my exam so that was fun, spent the nite shivering under a sheet coz my temp hit 40, thankfully was a bit better the next day. Still have a horrible chesty cough that does not want to go away and its keeping me up at nite, im lucky if i get more than 4 hours at the mo and as lectures have started again and i have to work on my project its not good. My cough my also prevent me from see Hundred Reasons as they are playing at my uni tonight and if my cough is bad i shouldnt go as the smoke will aggravate it. argh.
On the plus side id get to watch CSI if i stayed in as i recorded the 4 episodes from Sunday.
Anyway i need to have some luch before i leave to get some cough syrup and go to my lectures.

Nearly there

2007-01-16T19:28:00.000Z

Well ive done one exam, did better than expected, i think :S, we'll see. Am now revising for my exam thursday, just had a look at the past exam papers and i am not confident, hopefully that will change. If things go badly ill just have make sure i do all the work for my three exam based modules this semseter. Hopefully average at a 2:2, maybe a 2:1 if i really work my ass off.
After my exams im gonna chill and catch up on some games ive got recently - lost magic for the nintendo ds, harvest moon a wonderful life, black as well as the games i had before that i havent finished.

Anyway back to revision.

oh boy.

exmas, argh

2007-01-12T09:51:00.000Z

well my dissertations in and done so no more worries about that. Now all i have to do is revise for 2 exams next week, im not expecting to do well although i am hoping i manage a pass.
Apart from stressing over exams (which is doing my sleep no good) everything is good. Im off to the cinema sat to watch happy feet with dave and anna. We're going to nandos for dinner after so should be good. I might be going out 2nite but as my lower back is playing up i may not, even if i can drink.
Roll on next friday, then all i have to do is my project and 3 exams in the summer. Then scarily i will be finished forever as far as this degree goes.
ANyway back to the revision.

at last

2007-01-07T21:37:00.000Z

I've finished my dissertation, well ive still got the references and the folder of notes and then to bind 2 copies of the dissertation, but that will be a piece of cake in comparision to writing the damn thing.
I can relax tonight and eat ice cream and worry bout things 2m.

Gonna watch CSI/CSI miami and CSI:NY

hav fun folks

jen
x

2007-01-07T17:00:00.000Z

Well im back at uni now, got another 800 words and lots of little bits to do before being able to hand in my dissertation on wednesday. Then 2 exams on the 15th and 18th to revise for and then things settle down again for a bit.
Been a bit miserable of late, dont know if its coz im stressed bout my course and not showing it as always. I never truely believe im capable of doing my degree but im still here and all my friends and family think i can do it. Im also a worrier, well not as bad as my mum but i cant help but worry bout people i care about so that doesnt help. Also feeling a bit of a burden to my rents at the mo as dad took me shopping in tescos and is paying my rent, altho i am giving him any of my loan that doesnt pay off my overdraft. I always say im gonna treat my mum and dad to a holiday etc when ive got a decent job after uni but then part of me doesnt believe i can pass and get a decent job. A rock and a hard place anyone.
My bf is being lovely and supportive etc and thats something that is troubling me, im not used to having such a nice bf, previous ones have been caring but not as caring as this one and also not as adamant about how they feel as well. Ah well hopefully after my exams things will get back to normal and i'll feel chirpy again.

This is just a bit of a ramble to avoid work but im gonna go back to that now.

2006-12-04T15:05:00.000Z

Well im 2300 words into a 5000 word dissertation, and im not even sure of the title, hmm doesnt sound good, but least somethings getting written. Im determined to get to around 2600 words before i call it a day. Got til friday to do it anyway so all going well should get it done.
Part from that which is taking up more of my time than id like, im currently preparing for a mini xmas on sunday, me and 3 mates are gettin together and having a xmas day for ourselves, theres stockings which im making (socks and a bit of tinsel works wonders) and have to fill. I'm getting all the food on sat with the help of my mate anna, my bf davw would help but he has drama rehearsals, altho if there as good as they have been recently he'll only be there an hour. It something nice to look forward to and keeps me motivated to do work, sooner the works done, sooner i can act like a child and be all excited.
it'll soon be time for me to return to wales, a week on sat in fact, then i get to see the family again and do the whole xmas thing so alls good. Hopefully my mums foot will be all better and she can stop crawling up the wall.

anyway i should stop rambling and get back to work, hope to finish todys target by half 3.

Jen
x

2006-11-08T17:08:00.000Z

well, this is a good way to procrastinate when your supposed to be doing research for your dissertation and final year project. Ah well i've got a week til i meet my supervisor again so plenty of time to do work. Should do it tonite as my bf is at the obseratory and ill have a few hours to kill on my own.
Ah well maybe the martini will help me think, and i can havve a relaxing bath later as well.

Ill add to this when i remember and when i should be doing work not doubt.

Jen