Things are good(ish)

Well college started on thurs, and after 4 hrs of it i'm feeling positive about the course. It is interesting to study and practice the skills needed to be a counselor. last week we covered health and safety risks, and practiced how to construct and build a contract as it were with a client so that we are both safeguarded. Just been trying to do my homework for thurs and its more challenging than i first thought but its all good.
Been for an interview today at coffee#1, i think it went ok, and now im just waiting to see if they want to give me a trial shift. In many ways i do want a job, some income would be good and ok it'd only be a little more than jobseekers but every penny counts at the mo. It might mean that i get to spend less time visiting dave and everyone at uni tho and that is where my heart wants to be and not just coz of dave. I like the independence and at this exact moment im missing a psifa night, i will get to go to one maybe once a month but i loved the social life. Heck i miss alt nites (no matter what they try to change the name to) even tho the music did get a bit repetitive at times.
oh well least this weekend im seeing dave, just got a long thurs to get thru, coz not only do i have my course from 5 to 9 but i have to be up and in town for 10:40 for the jobseekers check up interview. Which means i need to be up at half 8 maybe earlier. Boy im gonna be tired by the time i get to college.

Roll on the weekend and mine and daves 1yr anniversary. Doesnt seem like its been a year.

take care all

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College

Well the college still doesn't know if my course is being run tonight or thursday. I've got to ring them up in soon. If it is today i need to be ready by half 2 and they said i should ring back at 2, heres hoping i dont get put on hold and shunted about departments again. I'm kinda hoping for thursday and i suspect it will be but we'll see. If it is thursday then thats good coz i have time to prepare an i won't be rushed. Also im hoping the psifa film night is then so that then dave and i will both be busy on thurs and we won't miss each other too much. Least when i start i'll have something to ground me and keep me focused, stop me moping hopefully but i'll probably still mope but a lil less.

On the plus side in a week and 2 days i get ot go see dave, and we get to have a date out to a very nice restaurant :) also hopefully see a few other mates and maybe go to psifa. I'm looking forward to seeing everyone and it will be fun, shame in some ways that i have to come home. but oh well its only like this til june. that sounds so far away and so not at the same time. Hopefully it'll go quickly once me and dave are both studying.

On the job front theres a few in town, im applying to coffee 1 again, oh joy. Theres a few xmas jobs and ill see if they will affect my jobseekers 2m. Also a temp job in peacocks but i will look again 2m when i sign on and see if i have any hope.

tis all for now, off to ring the college again *sigh*

xXx

Some thoughts

Well ive been back home over a week now and i'm still missing dave. Hes got the internet now though so talking to each other is easier, hooray for skype. I am worried that he'll be to busy sitting at his pc to remember his friends and to go and have fun with them. I do feel like a distrction from uni life, even though he said that its ok. This ldr will be hard, specially as im trying to visit once a month but its only for a year, well til he finishes uni. Its weird knowing that he'll go to psifa and he's living with mates and im not there. Im also gonna miss psifa although i will go when i can. Him going to uni has had an impact on the ldr, which hasnt been helped by me feeling lonely as most of my mates are still at uni. I think that once he settles down when his course starts then ok i wont be able to play WoW with him all day but i'll know when im likely to see him online.

Aside from that jobs are thin on the ground altho the temp jobs for xmas should start appearing soon. I'm hopefully off to town later today even if the weather does look naff. Dad said that peacocks needed someone and im gonna try for coffee#1 again.

Tweekie our dog is poorly altho to look at her this minute you wouldn't think it. Shes needs to tablets a day and its up to me as mum and dad are in bruges (well later today they wil be), they spent last night in belgium. They took the train as mums not keen on flying. I hope they have a good time and mum doesn't push dad in a canal like she said she might.

I'd better go medicate the dog, put some proper clothes on (a dressing gown is not suitable for job hunting) and go to town before it starts tipping down with rain (good luck to me it is wales after all :P)

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Weddings, university and life

Ok its been awhile since my last proper blog, oops. Lets see whats happened then,
on the 1st sept my best mate rach got married and i was one of her bridesmaids and it was a great day if knackering. SHe looked so gorgeous but then she said me and em did too. Well i'll let you decide, the pics will be on facebook soon once i've nicked them off the pc downstairs. My bf took some of them and we were using my mums camera.
From then til the 5th me and dave were making the most of being together and also packing to go back to uni. On the 5th we made the long journey back to hatfield by train, also the underground was not fully working and i now have a dislike off the bakerloo line and its many steps, we had six bags/suitcases between us and it was not fun. We got to hatfield tho and all was good. The rest of daves stuff turned up on sat and hes pretty much unpacked all by now. I think me and him could have had more quality alone time but we would have felt rude coz anna was the only one there til the other 2 boys showed up on sunday. They don't have the internet yet but i hope they sort it soon.
I returned home yesterday as today is sign on day yippee. I had got used to saying goodbye to dave but this time i was crying 2 days before i left. I think its because i know that hes going to have psifa to go to and hes got all his friends there. Most of my friends are there too and i feel so detached coz im far away. I feel im missing things with dave, that there are moments we cant share coz of the distance, makes me a lil sad. That and if i do get a job then my once a month visits that im planning will be short and sweet. They would be for 2 -3 days rather than 5 which sucks but i do need the money more. Its made me realise how hard this year is gonna be and how i feel like a part of me is missing because dave is so far away.

oh well, the sooner i get on with it the better, time will fly, it should do its daves final year and it won't be long til he'll prob come to visit and not leave. Its likely, and would be nice, just don't know what mum and dad would say hmm.

I think thats enough for now.

xXx

an quick update

i'm still alive, just been busy as daves was down, there was the wedding and then moving dave back to uni. Now things are back to normal i shall post a longer blog later, at the moment im getting ready to go sign on and then job hunt (wish me luck ha ha).

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the weekend

well it started with going to town to meet rach and emma and get our hair done. W e had a trial for the wedding adnw e all looked lush afterwards. It was rachs hen party and a pamper party and meal had been planned. Well teh pamper party was fab, all 3 of us had back massages which i could have quit happily had bout 4 more of atleast, it was soo relaxing. Her mum and aunt had facials and were glowing afterwards. We all just wanted to sleep but we had a meal to get dolled up for. We went to a very nice local hotel for the meal, and the food was absolutely gorgeous. I had carrot and cumin soup, followed by lamb on creamy mash with a helping of cheesy leeks and chocolate mousse for pudding. It was filling but soo yummy.
After we had some tea we went back to the house, where bob marley was put on some dancing and games were played. We had pin teh dan on the egyptian which was something to see. Then questions and forfeits were done. Basically if rach got a qu wrong she did a forfeit but if she got it right one of us did a forfiet. Also those doing a forfeit had to wear a cleopatra wig. Oe of the forfiets which i dont think will ever be forgotten was "start every sentence with I'm wearing (nsert colour here) pants" Rachs mum ended up with that one which was just hilarious especially when things like "I'm wearing white pants and its not right" were said. It was just good fun. A quality do and one that ideas will be nicked form for emmas do no doubt and mine when i get there.
On my return home on sunday after a lovely sausage casserole at rachs, i found mum having a bit of a panic as rich and his gf had decided to join us for dinner, the dinning table had to be extended and a chair wiggled out under the table. There was also only 4 toblerone mousse to eat and five people for dinner, but that worked out in the end as one of us had birthday cake. Was a lovely meal and many tales from mine and richs childhood were recounted.
At about half nine i managed to speak to dave again, who hd sent me a free gift on facebook and a stealth message on skype. He'd missed me something chronic. I got to experience what he felt yesterday for a bit when he went to sheffield. It amazing how knowing atleast that their on/near thier pc can make them not seem so far away.
Well daves turning up 2m yays and ive got him for atleast a week and a half maybe a bit more if i go back to hatfield with him.
I think thats enough for now
xXx

Creativity

Well yesterday i just picked up a pencila and started drawing, i was bored and theres always a stack of paper on my desk for KOS (kill on sight list for WoW) and workign out how much money i don't have. Yesterday tho i was taken with an urge to draw, i didnt know what but a quick google search gave me some ideas. I drew a cute thing for dave, a teddy bear, eeyore, a rose, grr, attempted a turtle and a pic of me and dave cutsey style. Well i tried and some arent bad, and i enjoyed doing it. It was relaxing and creative, and i liked it, normally my relaxation is games or books or a walk if its nice. I've been wanting to do something creative for awhile and it was nice to find something i could do with little prep. I do occasionally try to do a bit of creative writing but that requires my mind to be in the right place and it hasn't been there for a bit.

I'm hoping i keep drawing, the sweet things i do for dave often rely on others (except the cooking i suppose) and it would be nice if one day the picture in my head that i would like to see on paper i could actually draw. Maybe one day.

Aside form that im not back at my local docs officially, im still jobless but as in my previous blog im hopeful, as my overdraft gets less more option become available, learning to drive being one. Dad has always said that he would pay for half so we're working on a buy one get one free type of scheme from my perspective. I buy a lesson and then the next ones dads to pay. Now to find a driving instructor. Least its cheaper here than it would have been at uni. I'm gonna try for a lesson a week to start with.

Other than that not much else is going on.

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Hope

Well today has seen a rise in my spirits, im not feeling as hopeless as i have been. I've started writing my CV and ive just been thinking about my career path a little more positively. I know that i will be skint for like the next 5 years while i get the qualifications and experience i need but i know it will be worth it. Having had counselling myself i know that it will be worth the effort if i can go on to help people get past their problems

I get the feeling that i will be doing a fair bit of voluntary work in the next few years and its just a case of me getting to the point where i can do it and not be too worried about finances. I keep trying for part time /full time jobs in town, my latest attempt will be holland and barrats once my cv is done. My best bet is a part time job as hopefully if my interview goes well on the 24th i'll be studying counselling skills and practice part time at a local college. I'm looking forward to it as i'll finally be able to sink my teeth into the topic that i have wanted to study for ages. I love psychology and it fascinates me and counselling is another step along it.

Sometimes i wonder if i'm really cut out for counselling, most of my friends either think i'll be great at it or can definitely see me doing it. Hopefully doing the part time course will help me either decide its not right or alay my fears and make me realise my true potential. I've also been considering subscribing to a publication called Therapy Today, which as far as i've looked is one of the few dedicated to counsellors and psychotherapists. I could get that and a journal for free if i join the BACP. Either way at the moment its money i don't have but its def in the pipeline.

I've had a positive day overall and i hope it continues, i'm thinikng of starting driving lessons soonish which also makes me feel happier. I can just about get one a week depending on what i do. Its not much but its a start and thats better than nothing.

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LDRs

Well they suck really, unless your an uber individual person i suppose. Im not, im a cuddly watching dvds type and its just not the same when your boyfriends 200 miles away. I can handle i just dont actually want to. One of lifes annoying necessities. Its hard to be so far apart, i mean yes we skype everyday and play WoW and guildwars together and that but you can have too much of it. Some nights we rarely say much to each other and if im feeling down it makes me less likely to say anything anyway. I feel tied to my pc just coz in a way it feels like im closer to him even if i do get bored of the internet.

This is one reason why i really want a job/course to break up the routine. Then that would be routine as well but least id be getting out more and maybe different things would happen. I know that in a year we'll try to be together atleast, don't know how successful thats gonna be though. its a long and hard road to where we want to be and i know its worth it but occasionally it gets you down and you wonder why.

I think the hardest part is when we say goodbye and i don't know when i'll see him again, least when i know i can start a countdown. Not knowing seems to make the time drag on for longer, making it harder still.

Just a reflection of whats in my thoughts at the mo, just got to keep looking to the future.

xXx

missing things

lately its sunk in what being at home is like, not that its a bad thing its just i miss being at uni and being independent. Its nice seeing mum and dad and that but i think since ive had a taste of independence i want it more now, i kinda like having a place to call my own and strangly enough i like doing household things. It adds some routine to my day, at uni i was always thinking - well after this lecture ill have to go home take the laundry out and do the dishes before dinner etc etc. Now at home im thinking - what game shall i play or what dvd to watch. i do still have laundry to worry about but not as often now.

I miss psifa loads as well, all the guys just playing magic the gathering or whatever and sharing foods and having a laugh and watching films and what we've found on youtube. Uni had its up and downs but i really enjoyed it and its sad to know that ill only be a visitor from now on, atleast at hertfordshire.

Due to me being at uni for 3 years i now have to reregistar with the docs which is a pain, but if i dont do it now ill have to do it later and as i need a repeat prescription its best to do it now, even if i do have to go into town 3 times in the space of a week. That scarily enough is the highlight of the week. least it gets me out of the house.

xXx

tired

Well daves gone back to donny again and won't be back til the end of the month, i wasn't as sad as last time, i know i'll see him soon enough and i need to get used to it really. Once hes back at uni i have no idea how often i'll get to see him, im hoping i can visit once a month but that depends on having a job/money.

Still a lack of jobs going in town, and the card shop have yet to get back to me but hopefully they will. The websites the job centre aren't as helpful as i'd like, i'd be alright if i wanted to move away and could afford to but that wasn't in the plan. I am looking into more local volunteeering options but i think ive become too disconnected from here in a way. Oh well we'll just see what happens.

I'm tired mainly coz of early mornings and late nights, i live in hope of a lie in, even if it would make me feel naff. My days seem so empty and lacking of late and i wish i had more creative hobbies although there is one now i think of it that maybe i'll take up again. I'll save that for another day tho.

Roll on the end of the month when dave pops back and theres rachels wedding to look forward to. Its gonna be good even if at the mo the makeup is a lil up in the air but that can easily be sorted, at the end of the day we can always do it ourselves.

I'm currently making my way through the 6th harry potter book and hopefully 2m i will be starting the 7th book at last. My hours on WoW will probably go up this week since daves left. I could probably waffle on a lil more but im not feeling 100% at the mo.

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Fed Up

Well i'm still jobless, and theres very little going in town. Its doing my head in only leaving the house to sign on or if dads going to town. I got kinda used to going out to psifa and the like at uni and to be stuck i all the time sucks. Also the weathers been rotten so i haven't been able to go for all the walks i like to, does mean i've had plenty of time to play WoW although that may not be a healthy thing.

I've managed to read a few books, Who Me? by Jenny sullivan, a collection of comic tales of fantasy, Neil Gaimans Neverwhere. I've still got phillip pullmans His dark materials, 2 ben elton books and numerous others that are sitting on my shelves, several of which are my parents which have been recommended. That should keep me quiet for a bit and break up the gaming nicely.

The job centre did give me a list of websites to look at but to no avail at the moment although i have not looked through them all yet. I am applying for a part time job in a card shop but yet again the references are a sticking point, why do they insist on wanting previous employers and why did mine have to go and shut down :(

Not much else has happened, oh the bank has taken away my interest free overdraft now which is just great, lets here it for their graduate service. It'd be alrite if i paid them 9.95 a month but i cant really afford to. The really annoying thing is that they only changed thier standard graduate service this year, if id graduted before may i'd still be fine and interest free, argh its annoying.

Anywho thats enough blogging for one day.

xXx

Its late and here we are

Well i now have an interview at the college at the end of august so heres hoping it goes well. If it does i will be a small step closer to the job i have wanted to do since i was 14, even if i didn't know what it was then.
As a plus note today, one of daves grades got put up to a pass which is always good. Hes coming to wisit in two weeks and i can't wait to see him. Its only been a week and i miss him soo much. I'm coping better than i was though, not so many tears anymore. Been trying to keep myself busy, been playing too much WoW as my xfire profile shows well, also been watching firefly and am half way through now. Got my amazon rental dvds to watch and now that my Wii is set up i'm hoping to complete zelda at some point.
My room has now been tidied to pretty much teh state it will remain in til i leave. This is mainly due to having too much stuff, But i'm sentimental at times and i've chucked at least 3 bin bags worth of stuff out already. Also when dave visits im not sure where hes going to sleep as i cannot be bothered to unfold the futon, that and its so uncomfy that we may as well sleep on the floor.

Thats bout it for now, i'm ready for bed so i will go read a little and then sleep.

xXx

Well its official

I have a 2:2 BSc (Hons) psychology degree and i'm unemployed. Oh joys, well the degrees good, just wish i had some decent money coming in. Jobseekers finally gave me some so i'm not as in debt as i was but my WoW subscription does come out this month :( ans as you can tell from my xfire profile (for those on facebook use the link to get to my blog proper) i've been playing far too much.

Aside from that the planned trip to manchester for make up trials for my mates wedding has been cancelled, which sucks but is not the end of the world. Hopefully me and her can meet up at some point soon, i'll go mad just staying in this house, with only skyping dave and msn to keep me sane. Not that i can afford to do anything else mind but oh well.

Another thing is that dad has with my permission put me in to do a course at a local college on counselling skills. This would probably help me in the long run altho i am worried how much it will cost and when i will be doing it if all goes well and they let me. Its all up in the air at the mo, but hopefully something will come up.

Not much else has been happening really, just been chilling, getting bored on the internet and currently deciding what to watch while dave is offline coz hes worried about a storm thier having in Donny. Maybe some firefly, i dunno.

xXx

A reflection maybe

Well since my last post i have turned 21, who would have believed it, i still don't. It was a great birthday, went out for a lovely meal with the family, meet richards girlfriend. The food was lovely and the pudding was gorgeous, it was meringue with cream and ice cream and banana and a toffee sauce, yum. I rather enjoyed it and it was nice to see my bro again.
Dave who is staying with me at the moment has had to stay a little longer than expected due to flooding in doncaster which means him getting home is a challenge. So he is thinking of leaving next thurs altho he'd prefer to stay with me all summer but that would not earn him any money. Its nice him still being here, i'm going to miss him soo much when he leaves. He has bought me a large cuddly toy to hug when hes gone and if i figure out how i'll put a piccy up :P (for those on facebook it'll get put up there).
Also my provisional results have been published on studynet (the uni internet portal for students thing) and i got all C's this year, a C1 for my dissertation which i'm proud of. This means that i should get a 2:2 overall and i'm chuffed with that, a 2:1 would have given me a better chance at my masters but if i do relevant work experience then it should be ok.
It's been weird being back home and i don't think it'll sink in til sept when dave leaves to got to uni, hes popping back at the beginning of sept to go to a wedding with me, thats when i think it'll hit me that im no longer a student and that will be weird. I had a good time at uni, made some excellent friends, who i will make an effort to keep in touch with. (Liz next year i'm going to cook you a meal, ive tried your cakes and now you can try my mains) I will be popping back to uni as dave is there and hes living with anna and that, hopefully i'll get to see liz too. I will miss uni and everything that goes with it, part of me wants to go straight to my masters but i think that the time out will be good for me, will be better when i get a job but thats going to be a challenge in itself but hopefully something will turn up.
On another note, we went to ikea on wed and it was fun, well i got a new desk, the sink mum and dad want was in the sale altho that caused no end of trouble, dad had to go back thurs to pick it up coz they tried to give us 2 wrong sinks and then told us it was in the self serve area of the warehouse but they needed the forklift which can't be used in the self serve area when there are customers in the store. oh boy. But we do have the right sink now and my desk is good, my printer will finally get to live on a shelf, its not gonna be on the desk as its too fat but due to the way my room i now there is a handy shelf for it to live on. I hate to say it but once daves gone the final touches can be made to my room, especially as the futon in bed form will go back to being a sofa and i will have floor space again. I've told him hes sleeping on the floor next time he comes, the futons way too much effort.
I think thats about it for now, i'm off to be sad and play a lil WoW while i wait for dave to get up, i might play a lil cabal instead, hmm.
xXx

well its been a week

Well my room is tidy, just need to get rid of the empty boxes. It just about all fits in, although i found out i have more shoes than i remember. My pc is set up but not on the network as of yet as i have been told two different vesions of the password although i think the one my bro told me today might just be right, i will try it out later to see. fingers crossed coz then not only can i blog more, i can play WoW and cabal online now that is has free to play accounts.
I still havent finished filling in an application form as im stuck as to who to put as references, its always a sticking point especially as i havent had a job for 3 years and the last place i worked no longer exists. oh dear. my tutors and that at uni have probably all run away and probably would say no anyway although i am trying.
That aside things are good, i should get some money next week as i got a letter yesterday saying that the jobseekers claim had gone through so now its just a matter of time.
Tomorrow is my birthday which i'm looking forward to although im not expecting much, a nice family meal would be nice but i havent been let in on the plans yet what a surprise.
Yesterday went to cardiff to meet up with anna and go to techniquest. Was good fun even if it was full of schoolkids. Got a few bits and pieces from the giftshop, dave got my a bracelet that is very nice. Then did a bit of shopping in town, dave got a memory card so he can take hes ffxii save home with him. I got another filmore jigsaw puzzle, so many things in the disney store i like but cannot afford. They had a nice sized sticth cuddly toy but he was £14 so he had to stay there and i shall just have to live with my small one i have. Twas a tiring day and then to end it had a bad tummy so went to be bout 11.
Thats bout all for now, off to look at cuddly eeyore with dave on eBay, he was gonna buy one yesterday when we went to cardiff but £40 was a bit much, but it would be nice to have a big cuddly toy to hug once hes gone :(

And calm

Well nearly, my room is definitly nearly livable in, only a few boxes left to go, i can reach all parts of my room now which is good. As far as jobs go, i still haven't got one, will be applying for one thought and i will be on jobseekers once its gone through. The bank said no to extending my overdraft funnily enough even though it should have gone up to £1500 in my third year anyway. Thier reviewing it in july/august anyway and it may be put up then as it will automatically become a graduate account.
Things are not so argh now, and once i get my new desk then all will be good and i can set up my pc finally and won't have to borrow the family one, my email checking ocd can return yay, also need to put the games consoles somewhere to i suppose.

Other than that not much happening, am going to techniquest next thurs yay, and maybe watching a film after but depends on if we can drag dave out of techniquest.

thats all for now :)

xXx

Argh

I'll try to keep it brief and concise but no promises.

1. I am looking for a job, which i need to learn to drive and now i've found out, upgrade my bank account to a graduate one.
2. My room is not yet livable in except to sleep, 2 rooms stuff into 1 room = nightmare.
   
3. I have to go the job centre 2m as well as a small list of other things which means 2m is busy and my room will stay unpacked til the end of the week no doubt.
4. The bps are smelly as they won't let me join unless i get 2 other graduate or higher members to sign my form, which means travelling which i can't afford.
5. Part from that things are good, and yay.
   
6. The world sucks as money is too essential to living. I'm prob only saying that as i have none but still, it sucks.

Anyway that was brief, hopefully in the next week i can blog how i will prob have new glasses, be on jobseekers and have extended my overdraft (fingers crossed).
Now i'm tired and i have to be up in the mornign to go run arouns town, yay.

xXx

Fed up

My house is a tip, and yes it is partly my fault but still, the kitchen floor was a state as were the work surfaces. i've just finished cleaning them as well as the hob. I'm going no where near the oven tho. I'm just fed up of the constant mess, maybe i'm just meh as its my last week here i don't know. Also i have to be prepared for a bbq 2m and my landlord hasn't dropped the lawnmower round yet. Maybe the heats getting to me. Argh, i just want a tidy house that i can slob in.
On the plus side we have some boxes from asda to pack stuff in which is handy, daves out at the galleria trying to find gaffa tape so they don't fall apart. I just want to chill out and play harvest moon or one of the other many games i must complete. Also doing alot of laundry while its nice.
As may be obvious my thoughts are all over the place and i just want to curl in a ball somewhere but i can't. hopefully once i've finished tidying and helping dave pack i should feel a bit better, i hope so.
Anyway i should go sort the living room out, daves hoovering it when he gets back.

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I'm finished

Well i had my last exam yesterday - went ok i think although maybe not as good as the others. But we'll see sometime after mid june according to studynet.
Now i'm free to be a proper student fo a week before i return home. I'm having a few drinks with some mates to celebrate Annas birthday, we're starting at the ele (pub on campus) but as the summer ball is today the drinking may end up back at my house as i volunteered it. Tomorrow is a shopping and bowling trip to stevenage and if i'm not careful dave will spend far to much money, i dread to think how much my birthday pressies have cost so far, i know its atleast £35 as i know which necklace he was gonna buy me. Hopefully it'll be ok. I've hit my limit of £800 overdrawn so oops, thats been upped as i cant go a week without spending money, otherwise dave pays for everything and hes probably not going to be working as much as me (fingers crossed for me getting a job).
Sunday will be spent getting the food and booze for my bbq on monday - yay. I can't believe i'm gonna be 21 in 22 days, this last year has gone soo quick its unbelievable.
Next week after monday will be spent packing what i can, going to the park as i have a kite to fly - i'm such a child, and just generally not doing much. Oh and making sure anna doesn't loose her sanity, as only her and the 2 chinese students are left in her house on campus and they have decided to take over the kitchen and they leave it a mess so shes not happy.
Gonna get some boxes so that dave can pack - most of his stuffs going into storage so some sturdy plastic boxes are needed, the best we have tho is cheap shop boxes so they might just last the summer.
Anyway i've got things to do so i'd better do them - i need to tidy up before a bunch of physics/astrophysics descend on my house to get drunk.

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