A reflection maybe

Well since my last post i have turned 21, who would have believed it, i still don't. It was a great birthday, went out for a lovely meal with the family, meet richards girlfriend. The food was lovely and the pudding was gorgeous, it was meringue with cream and ice cream and banana and a toffee sauce, yum. I rather enjoyed it and it was nice to see my bro again.
Dave who is staying with me at the moment has had to stay a little longer than expected due to flooding in doncaster which means him getting home is a challenge. So he is thinking of leaving next thurs altho he'd prefer to stay with me all summer but that would not earn him any money. Its nice him still being here, i'm going to miss him soo much when he leaves. He has bought me a large cuddly toy to hug when hes gone and if i figure out how i'll put a piccy up :P (for those on facebook it'll get put up there).
Also my provisional results have been published on studynet (the uni internet portal for students thing) and i got all C's this year, a C1 for my dissertation which i'm proud of. This means that i should get a 2:2 overall and i'm chuffed with that, a 2:1 would have given me a better chance at my masters but if i do relevant work experience then it should be ok.
It's been weird being back home and i don't think it'll sink in til sept when dave leaves to got to uni, hes popping back at the beginning of sept to go to a wedding with me, thats when i think it'll hit me that im no longer a student and that will be weird. I had a good time at uni, made some excellent friends, who i will make an effort to keep in touch with. (Liz next year i'm going to cook you a meal, ive tried your cakes and now you can try my mains) I will be popping back to uni as dave is there and hes living with anna and that, hopefully i'll get to see liz too. I will miss uni and everything that goes with it, part of me wants to go straight to my masters but i think that the time out will be good for me, will be better when i get a job but thats going to be a challenge in itself but hopefully something will turn up.
On another note, we went to ikea on wed and it was fun, well i got a new desk, the sink mum and dad want was in the sale altho that caused no end of trouble, dad had to go back thurs to pick it up coz they tried to give us 2 wrong sinks and then told us it was in the self serve area of the warehouse but they needed the forklift which can't be used in the self serve area when there are customers in the store. oh boy. But we do have the right sink now and my desk is good, my printer will finally get to live on a shelf, its not gonna be on the desk as its too fat but due to the way my room i now there is a handy shelf for it to live on. I hate to say it but once daves gone the final touches can be made to my room, especially as the futon in bed form will go back to being a sofa and i will have floor space again. I've told him hes sleeping on the floor next time he comes, the futons way too much effort.
I think thats about it for now, i'm off to be sad and play a lil WoW while i wait for dave to get up, i might play a lil cabal instead, hmm.
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well its been a week

Well my room is tidy, just need to get rid of the empty boxes. It just about all fits in, although i found out i have more shoes than i remember. My pc is set up but not on the network as of yet as i have been told two different vesions of the password although i think the one my bro told me today might just be right, i will try it out later to see. fingers crossed coz then not only can i blog more, i can play WoW and cabal online now that is has free to play accounts.
I still havent finished filling in an application form as im stuck as to who to put as references, its always a sticking point especially as i havent had a job for 3 years and the last place i worked no longer exists. oh dear. my tutors and that at uni have probably all run away and probably would say no anyway although i am trying.
That aside things are good, i should get some money next week as i got a letter yesterday saying that the jobseekers claim had gone through so now its just a matter of time.
Tomorrow is my birthday which i'm looking forward to although im not expecting much, a nice family meal would be nice but i havent been let in on the plans yet what a surprise.
Yesterday went to cardiff to meet up with anna and go to techniquest. Was good fun even if it was full of schoolkids. Got a few bits and pieces from the giftshop, dave got my a bracelet that is very nice. Then did a bit of shopping in town, dave got a memory card so he can take hes ffxii save home with him. I got another filmore jigsaw puzzle, so many things in the disney store i like but cannot afford. They had a nice sized sticth cuddly toy but he was £14 so he had to stay there and i shall just have to live with my small one i have. Twas a tiring day and then to end it had a bad tummy so went to be bout 11.
Thats bout all for now, off to look at cuddly eeyore with dave on eBay, he was gonna buy one yesterday when we went to cardiff but £40 was a bit much, but it would be nice to have a big cuddly toy to hug once hes gone :(

And calm

Well nearly, my room is definitly nearly livable in, only a few boxes left to go, i can reach all parts of my room now which is good. As far as jobs go, i still haven't got one, will be applying for one thought and i will be on jobseekers once its gone through. The bank said no to extending my overdraft funnily enough even though it should have gone up to £1500 in my third year anyway. Thier reviewing it in july/august anyway and it may be put up then as it will automatically become a graduate account.
Things are not so argh now, and once i get my new desk then all will be good and i can set up my pc finally and won't have to borrow the family one, my email checking ocd can return yay, also need to put the games consoles somewhere to i suppose.

Other than that not much happening, am going to techniquest next thurs yay, and maybe watching a film after but depends on if we can drag dave out of techniquest.

thats all for now :)

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Argh

I'll try to keep it brief and concise but no promises.

1. I am looking for a job, which i need to learn to drive and now i've found out, upgrade my bank account to a graduate one.
2. My room is not yet livable in except to sleep, 2 rooms stuff into 1 room = nightmare.
   
3. I have to go the job centre 2m as well as a small list of other things which means 2m is busy and my room will stay unpacked til the end of the week no doubt.
4. The bps are smelly as they won't let me join unless i get 2 other graduate or higher members to sign my form, which means travelling which i can't afford.
5. Part from that things are good, and yay.
   
6. The world sucks as money is too essential to living. I'm prob only saying that as i have none but still, it sucks.

Anyway that was brief, hopefully in the next week i can blog how i will prob have new glasses, be on jobseekers and have extended my overdraft (fingers crossed).
Now i'm tired and i have to be up in the mornign to go run arouns town, yay.

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Fed up

My house is a tip, and yes it is partly my fault but still, the kitchen floor was a state as were the work surfaces. i've just finished cleaning them as well as the hob. I'm going no where near the oven tho. I'm just fed up of the constant mess, maybe i'm just meh as its my last week here i don't know. Also i have to be prepared for a bbq 2m and my landlord hasn't dropped the lawnmower round yet. Maybe the heats getting to me. Argh, i just want a tidy house that i can slob in.
On the plus side we have some boxes from asda to pack stuff in which is handy, daves out at the galleria trying to find gaffa tape so they don't fall apart. I just want to chill out and play harvest moon or one of the other many games i must complete. Also doing alot of laundry while its nice.
As may be obvious my thoughts are all over the place and i just want to curl in a ball somewhere but i can't. hopefully once i've finished tidying and helping dave pack i should feel a bit better, i hope so.
Anyway i should go sort the living room out, daves hoovering it when he gets back.

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I'm finished

Well i had my last exam yesterday - went ok i think although maybe not as good as the others. But we'll see sometime after mid june according to studynet.
Now i'm free to be a proper student fo a week before i return home. I'm having a few drinks with some mates to celebrate Annas birthday, we're starting at the ele (pub on campus) but as the summer ball is today the drinking may end up back at my house as i volunteered it. Tomorrow is a shopping and bowling trip to stevenage and if i'm not careful dave will spend far to much money, i dread to think how much my birthday pressies have cost so far, i know its atleast £35 as i know which necklace he was gonna buy me. Hopefully it'll be ok. I've hit my limit of £800 overdrawn so oops, thats been upped as i cant go a week without spending money, otherwise dave pays for everything and hes probably not going to be working as much as me (fingers crossed for me getting a job).
Sunday will be spent getting the food and booze for my bbq on monday - yay. I can't believe i'm gonna be 21 in 22 days, this last year has gone soo quick its unbelievable.
Next week after monday will be spent packing what i can, going to the park as i have a kite to fly - i'm such a child, and just generally not doing much. Oh and making sure anna doesn't loose her sanity, as only her and the 2 chinese students are left in her house on campus and they have decided to take over the kitchen and they leave it a mess so shes not happy.
Gonna get some boxes so that dave can pack - most of his stuffs going into storage so some sturdy plastic boxes are needed, the best we have tho is cheap shop boxes so they might just last the summer.
Anyway i've got things to do so i'd better do them - i need to tidy up before a bunch of physics/astrophysics descend on my house to get drunk.

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Roll on November

I'm going to see the legend that is Bill Bailey in Cardiff on teh 25th nov, i can't wait, my bf is coming with me so yay its all good.
And this is what i do while killing time before an afternoon exam, will read the notes again before lunch not that im sure it'll help. On the plus side i'm not panicking, my friends have told me that i cna do it enough times that i think part of me believes them. That and i managed to get to the third year which would suggest i know something. Just a shame i seem to grasp topics better the year after i've done them. Also a shame i can't resit any of these exams :S
Least i'm prepared ish i just can't wait til thurs at around half 11 as it'll all be over then. The end of my undergraduate uni life (unless it all goes horrible wrong and i do another one in something else). It's weird coz i most of my friends are either staying here coz they are 1st/2nd years, are repeating modules or doing a master, go you liz :D, i kow alot of people i know on the course are leaving but i feel like a minority, like i'm the weird one coz i'm leaving. Strange.
That aside all is good, gettign drunk friday will be fun even if everyone may end up at mine depending on when the ele shuts, my overdraft is going to cry on sat (unless dave is feeling particualrly generous) with a shopping/bowling trip to stevenage. Least its only bout £3 to get there on the train.
I've got most of the supplies for the bbq on monday - just need food and maybe a tad more alcohol :)

Anyway, i'm off to read notes and try to remember how to speel names - e.g Dijkersthuis, couldn't have sensible names oh no.

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response to my bro

yes i have heard of the outdoors, i went out tonite so ner (i do wander alot round hatfield when avoiding work - any excuse to go to asda).
Right got that out of my system, saw PotC 3 and it was cool, very flashy as one might expect from the third in a trilogy but enjoyable none the less.
Had my exam this morning and it went better than expected, it always worry me when i right 2 maybe 3 pages and everyone else has atleast 3 to 5 pages, i've managed to pass so far so fingers crossed.
My parents sent me an e-card which was wishing me good luck which was cool, altho mildy embarassing and teary at the same time especially as my bf and my mate anna were there to see too.
Not much else to report, the shopping list for my bbq is getting longer and more expensive (mainly due to us wanting one of every type of alcohol asda can offer). Now to invite enough people to it so dad doesn't fill the vvan with bottles alone :P

Think thats all for now.

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xfire

Just a short note to say, you can now see how sad i am in regards to playing pc games as i've put my xfire miniprofile thing on my blog. Yay go me, and i've actuall probably played more WoW than that its just xfire wasn't open oops.
Enjoy
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Exams

Well my 1st ones tomorrow and by next thursday i will have done all 3 and will no longer be a student. Its a scary prospect and part of me is sad to leave this part of my life, i've liked having my independence and i'm going to miss the friends i've made soo much. I'll try to keep in touch, with the internet its not as hard as it used to be.
Its scary to think that for the first time in 3 years im not 100% sure whats going to happen or where i'm going to end up. I have my ideal plan to do the masters, which i do hope i can do. But un til i either find a uni thats not expensive or far away or wants me to be 23 i have to work. I should have more luck now that i can do full time and won't dissappear at the end of the summer but some relevant work experience is needed and thats the challenging part. I know i'm not good with changes and major milestones but going from uni to work is one of them and hopefully all will go smoothly.
Its still strange to think i won't be coming back to hatfield - well not as a student anyway any more and it hasn't really sunk in yet, im sure when it comes to september when i stay in wales and my bf goes back to uni it will. Its a shame these thoughts have distracted me from revision altho i think i've managed to do more than usual and also more regularly than usual to. I still don't think im prepared for tomorrow, will do a bit more this afternoon, try and get a few more studies in my head. Tonight i'm going to psifa to relax before tomorrow. I'm not prepared at all fro thursdays and i can only waffle in regards to the stress exam on tues at the mo.
Lets hope it rains at the weekend, its cruel having nice weather adnd having to stay in and revise.
On a less serious note, im off to see pirates of the caribbean (sp?) tomorrow for my mates birthday, will be a nice way to unwind after the exam. After the 31st may lots of drinking, merriment and spending of the overdraft will occur, as theres a bbq to attend for my birthday, a shopping/bowling/cinema trip to stevenage where some gothic clothing maybe acquired now i know they have the indoor market place.
There is the challenge of packing yet to come, and i have to sort my room out so that all of daves stuff thats currently in it will not be in it when his parents come on the 9th to put most of his belongings in storage. I'm still not sure the plans for my return to wales as my mate anna needs a lift and dave is returning with me :S

This turned into a bit of a mini essay of a blog, but as i haven't done one for a bit and am not likely to til end of next week it seems justified.

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Revision

Well thats what i'm supposed to be doing, its not going very well tho, but i'm trying.
The weekend was good, got some booster packs for the mirrodin and darksteel sets of Magic, got some tops and had a very nice meal when i met daves sister.
Was daves birthday yesterday and we went shopping, then in the evening we went to nando's which was cool, i tried some of my mates cheesecake and now im going back just for the puddings. We all went to the nearby arcade and i got dragged onto the dance machine with dave altho i did do better than him. Dave won some cute cuddly toys for pretty much all teh girls there so my desk now has atleast 4 smal furry things on it now.
My fat pack still hasn't turned up but fingers crossed for 2m, i swear the postmans forgotten bout our house.
Thats bout it for now, all that i can think of anyway. Need to go off and do dinner as we're meeting my mate at 7 and we need to be on time today.

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Doncaster

Well i'm to the boyfrineds parents place again in doncaster surprisingly given the title, theres his birthday next week and his sisters boyfriedns 30th this sat so we're going up for the bbq thier having. Least the train journey is only bout 2 hrs unlike the 3 and a half it is to get home. Will give me a chance to finish reading Eldest at last, started it at xmas but i just don't feel like reading as much when im at uni which sucks.
This morning will be spent mostly packing, having a shower and chillin, dave has lectures til 1 so we're not getting the train til like half 2. I wasn't supposed to get up this early today but between my bladder and my bf it was hard not too, does give me more time to be organised and enjoy my morning cup of tea.
I got my Coldsnap fat pack yesterday, for those who don't know i play Magic the Gathering and Coldsnap was a block of cards they released.
Find out more here, http://www.wizards.com/default.asp?x=mtgcom/arcana/1083
Futuresight the most recent block was released yesterday and hopefully daves and mines fatpacks are in the post as i type. Theres a card shop in Doncaster that we might pop into to buy the theme decks and any other cards that take our fancy.

Anyway i'm off to make myself some tea and check my auction on WoW.

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And relax

Well the project has been handed in, 40 pages of research although whether it can get me a good grade is another matter. I don't find out til august i think.
I've had my last lecture ever, well i'm supposed to be there at 10 but i'm not going as its the revision lecture and i'll just fall asleep. On the plus side my last lecture was a revision lecture by my fav lecturer on a topic i really enjoy. Topics in forensic and criminal psyhcology. My mate liz was saying that she was aiming to do 4 hours of revision a day, which is an acheivable target for even the laziest students (and theres only so much WoW u can play) and compared to my usually revison technique (the week before the exam or gap inbetween exams) its gotta be a better plan. 3 exams and im no longer a student :S
I'm relaxing til monday tho, and tidying the house as due to me focussing on my project so much my room and the downstairs looks a bit of a mess. The living room has turned into a wardrobe and under the staris is a mess and the kitchen needs a good clean, and why on earth is carpet tiles a good idea in a kitchen - just a pain in the ass to clean. Have to hover it like every week,least on the wood floor at home just get the brush out, done. Hover - def too much effort considering the state hobs and surfaces get in sharing with 2 others (well 4 others if we include my bf and sam who stays 2/3 nights out of ever 7).
I now have season 2 of House to watch - yay, thanks to liz again for having some quality dvds, liz u rock and i'm gonna miss u next year.
I found out i don't have to leave til the 17th of june altho its likely i'll go back the 16th, as my dad has to pick me up and i think he'd prefer to spend fathers day chilling than being a long distance taxi.
Well i think thats enough rambling for now, back to my morning cup of tea and wandering the internet a bit.
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coursework

Well its nearly done, i say that i still have to finish my project and then probably rewrite most of it 2m after seeing my tutor but its gatting there.
I now know when my exams are - 25th, 29th and 31st of may, that should be fun, normally i can only revise one topic at a time but im gonna have to divide my time if i've any chance of getting a 2:2, but its all over soon and then into the big world of work for a year or two.
As a side note - watched eragon the other night - not a bad film, keeps the spirit of the book even if it does take a lot out. If maybe they'd made it 2hrs, maybe 2 and a half they might have managed a bit more but still an enjoyable film but if you've read the book don't expect too much from it.
Also showed my boyfriend taxi (the good french original version) not the silly american one (imo i have only seen the trailer but when i se it in full i'll prob still have the same opinion). He enjoyed as its just a great film and he (even though hes not into cars in anyway really) still fancied getting a peugeot 406 afterwards. Now to show him the second one so we can watch the third one which my bro got me for xmas but have been waiting til daves caught up with me to watch. Damn degree getting in the way of having fun.
anyway, back to said coursework, got to get a fianl draft for 2m and i havent even finished the results yet or started the discussion argh.

the end is near

Well i've nearly finished writing my results up and then its just waffling to fill in the word limit. I'm soo tired so data analysis is not good at the mo but it has to be done. Currently waiting for dave to finish his work so we can get lunch. I mite even have to have sugar in my tea to wake me up which is bad. Hopefully it'll get done tho.
Went to st albans yesterday and got a charm bracelet abd dave got me 2 charms which was nice. We were gonna get guess who but we're both skint which sucks, even when i get my loan im still skint argh.
but enough rambling i need food so off to lunch i go.

man im tired

Well im in the lrc doing data analysis that i should have done last week, im knackered as my new duvet is too warm and i spent 4 hrs yesterday travelling. My shoulders hurt coz my cases were heavy even tho i didnt have to carry them too far, except at kings cross, why is platform 11 soo far away from the tube exit.
Came back to find a fixed light aswitch, but a soaked thru carpet in the toilet, not sure why, thought it was leaking from the flush handle but put a bucket under it and nothing. It must know im watching it. Told the landlord so maybe in 2 weeks it'll get looked at. Theres mould on the carpet but surprisingly its glued to the floor rather than not being attacehd at all which means i cant take it up argh. I feel better now.
Anyway, the coursework is going ok, i have my data all ready and the analysis won't take long once ive got the right notes with me. I've dyed my hair the purplely aubergine colour i like so all is good.
Going out tonight for my mates 21st, going to nandos so that'll be good, also be good to see her again as its been bout 2wks. What will i do once i've finished uni.
Gonna do a bit more work before going home and having a muffin and a mini milk yum.
I'll prob rant /waffle more, im doing coursework so its a good way to distract myself, that and facebook.

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Life = Coursework

Yep its that time of year where all i do is coursework, it sucks, but after today i only have to do it when i want, my tutor is not here to harass me and its the hols next week. I will do work over the hols but i will also have time to chill out play games, maybe more world of warcraft, watch some movies, spend time with family and friends etc.
I did a roaast on sunday for 6 people, that was fun, it was good and was very nice, one of my mates got absolutely trashed tho so next time we mite try to keep him a bit more on the sober side.
Not much else has been happening, im going home back to wales on saturday for a bit, give ,my mum her slightly delayed mothers day and birthday pressies.
Been watching House M.D and its brilliant, hugh laurie rocks, its not your stereotypical medical drama/comedy, its got something that just makes u want to watch more and enjoy it most importantly. Give it ago and see.

Thats all for now

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Hot Fuzz and more

Well on wed i saw hot fuzz with my bf and some mates, all i can say is it rocks, i didnt laugh as much as i could of but i wasnt feeling 100% that day so nevermind. Simon Pegg has done it again, and for those of u who have seen spaced there are atleast 2 of the cast from that in it other than simon obviously.
Been trying to do coursework and failing, the software just doenst want to work but im spending most of 2moro putting the data in in a way that doesnt cause it to crash, it could take some time.
I'm cooking a roast on sunday which shud be good, havent had a roast in ages so that shud be cool.
Not much else going on really, playing world of warcraft which cud explain the lack of coursework completion, ah well ill get there, despite my laziness this degree is important to me.

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life

Well as my last post mentioned i saw pursuit of happyness last week. I think its a class film, and its will smith in a serious role which he can play well. It nearly made me and my mates cry in a few places, and the end is an emotional one. Overall a good film not sure id but it but its def a possibility. Went out on tues to the font for an alt nite, was a good nite, bit quiet music was the usually mix of unknown stuff to me, and well kown stuff, was a bit on the meh side in that respect. But my friends were there and i managed to see some people i hadnt seen in ages damn uni work getting in the way. My mate kitty was having a bit of an up and down nite due to her boyfriend but i managed to cheer her up i think. I ended up walking her home to make sure she got home ok and then i ended up staying the night as it ended up being 4 in the morning and her and her flat mates wouldnt let me walk home alone. I keep forgetting that yes i may be older than them im still at risk in hatfield, if i was a bloke itd be less of a problem. Altho funnily enough in my forensics module we found out that more men are victims of crime than women.
I had a lovely valantines even if 2 of my mates were round co they werent getting a lift home til 6. I was knackered anyway, only had 3 hours sleep. I got flowers for the first time, the burning crusade expansion and the lotr extended box set, plus a cuddly toy and choc. Its just like christmas.
Now that the fun is over i need to go to uni to set up my experiment which could take a few hours at least. Least it gives me something to do, now i just hae to hope someone is in the room so i can use the pc.

jen

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Films

Well ive been seeing a few this week, on wednesday i saw dreamgirls, not something i would normally go to see at the cinema but im glad i did. I enjoyed the storyline and the songs, altho some did go on a bit to long. Not bad overall and if you like musicals you'll enjoy it.
On thursday it was the psifa societys film night and we saw terminator 2 which is a classic that everyone sees atleast once. Good old bit of action and arnie doing what he does best from the films ive seen of him. Was good fun even if i was a bit tired.
Tonight im seeing the pursuit of happyness, which no doubt i will blog about later. Its got will smith in it so im happy anyway.
Aside from me not doing work, ive been going to lectures, 6hrs a week i love it, playing yet more world of warcraft, and trying to get a meeting with my project supervisor, which i now have thankfully, i might actually get to do this project before the hand in date.
I went to St Albans yesterday with dave and anna and spent probably more tha i should, but i got bath crayons so im happy, gotta love childhood. Bought some magic cards, couple of books, a ring for my boyfriend who also bought me the same ring, it wasn't even the ones we originally wnated to get but its was pretty and they had only 2 and they were perfect fits and aslo cheaper.
Not much else is going on at the mo, so ill wander off and do many other pointless things.

Jen
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