A4E are shit

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says it all

Well says it all really and i'm supposed to go to thier offices in newport for another 12 weeks after 2m for "training" yes well, if i wasnt motivated before i am now, any job will do, although im hoping to sort out my placement 2m, oh i hope i do as that place will destroy my soul other wise.

Anyway i won't go on a rant, ive already done that to dave and its quite long and right now im too tired. Other than A4E making me go to newport and me not being able to see dave to much even though hes down everythingelse is fine. grr

xXx

oops

Haven't blogged for awhile, its amazing how the days merge and time just passes me by. damn i need a job. Although on the plus side i am starting my voluntary work tomorrow. Well i'm going for an induction day at the agency that have set it up and hopefully i'll start properly on wednesday or sometime this week. I'm going to be volunteering in the citizens advice bureau and im curious as to what they will want me to do. I told the jobcentre i wanted counselling related work but i suppose ill find out tomorrow and also its something else to go on the cv. Also as this counts as training i don't have to sign on every fortnight now yays, well until june when we have to see what happens with me then.

Since my last blog i have also started the advanced counselling course at college. Its on the same night as the last course which is cool. it is alot more theory than before which is making me think a bit more and we have to write 3 essays for this course and i can't ait to get the title of the first one, even though i know the topic a title is also something good to have.

I am now also starting to worry how i'm going to fit daves stuff into my room in the summer and i am now starting to try and have a harsh clearout of stuff that i just don't need. Hopefully some of it i can flog on eBay and some of it may go to friends if i think they want it. Doesn't help that i don't know if daves rents will keep some of his stuff at home, as until we get a place of our own some things he doesn't need, as me and mum have most of the final fantasy games so he doesn't need them. Its going to be a nightmare i can see it and no matter how carefully i plan it there is no doubt going to be some extra trips up the country. oh well it gives me something to look forward to. I just wish we had a place of our own but that'll have to wait till we both got jobs.

Daves coming back down tomorrow as well and i can't wait even though im gonna be knackered as its an early start as i have to be in newport at 9am. I'll probably put on a film and then just fall asleep knowing my luck.

I think that'll do for now, i'm contemplating having some lunch and then to try to sort my room, i need to tidy it for tomorrow and i might try to sort a few bits out ready for listing on thursday maybe.

take care all

xXx

It's been awhile

So heres an update.

I've finished my counselling course, passed all the skills section adn am waiting til march for the exam results. The advanced course start the week after next although i don't know what day yet so i have to ring the college soon.

I'm still jobless, sigh, one day someone will give me a job. off to the jobcentre to see my advisor this wednesday so see what she says. It would nice to bein credit again by my birthday.

This wednesday i am also going down to see dave and that which i am looking forward to. I am also planning to do a girls night in when im there to promote my mums handmade jewelry which should be fun. obviously im also down to see dave for valentines day but this year we're not going the commercial tacky route :D I'm taking him the the british science museum and hes cooking me a three course meal. they might be a few more romantical things but i don't want o disturb anyone :P

I am also trying to start a fitness kick, this is down to the fact im paranoid im gonna have no end of probs being my current weight and also because i don't like what i see when i look in the mirror. My diet is being ok at the moment and im not snacking as much as i used to which i think was my main downfall. I still need to eat breakfast more but im working on that. I'm going to start being more active and fitting in some exercise into everyday, or every other. Also being active might help keep my spirits up because having nothing to get up for really sucks.

Also got Daywatch dvd from amazon rental yesterday and will be watching it next week, will let you know my thoughts. On the dvd note, i watched kill bill vol 2 last week, i have to say the kill bill films, while being something i can watch, i just don't like them, i mean the plots simple enough to follow and its an evening but theres something about the way they've been produced that makes me think i could be watching a better film. Dave has them on dvd and it was his i borrowed, i somehow doubt its a film we're going to reach for time and again.

I think i may start doing dvd review blogs more often, ive seen enough films (and i know liz reads this and might get a recomendation :P) and it'd give me something to do.

Anywho i need to resart my pc and figure out why avg won't install itself and by that time dave might have woken from his slumber (what a great word).

xXx

exams done

Well i had my exam for my counselling course yesterday. Some of the questions were a little tricky but hopefully i managed to pass, its based on the national average though so we'll have to wait and see. I still have to go in thursday otherwise id be on a train now, but there are still skill assessments needing to be done and i have one left. We might be having one the week after too but we don't know yet.
This weekend i'm off up to hatfield to see dave and everybody. Looking forward to it as i havent been down for ages and if i don't go this weekend then i won't til the middle of feb and thats just too long.
I've decided that ll application forms should be the same jut to minimise confusion, and also the qualifications section should be bigger. That and i'm just fed up of them now and just want a job, unfortunately i want one that won't stop me going to college and i don't know what day the advanced course is on yet. argh.

Aside from that, ive managed to clear a drawer and some space in the wardrobe for some of daves stuff. Would be nice to have our own place but that ain't gonna happen for awhile. Hopefully dave can get a job pretty quick fingers crossed.

Anyway, i'd best go off and find something to do with the rest of the day, hmm i haven't alphabatised my dvds yet.

xXx

reflection and moving forwards

well last year saw a few changes occur, i became a graduate with a 2:2 in psychology, i left behind the student lifestyle i had become acustomed to and went back to living with my parents. This was good and bad, good as i don't have to worry about bills etc, but bad as im now 200 miles from my bf and many of my friends. Also after bing independent (ish) for 3 years, being back home is a challenge to get used to again.

2007 also marked a change in me, i started being myself more and i feel that my confidence has grown even if you wouldn't think it to see me. This year also marked mine and daves 1st year together and i can only hope that there are many more, i know when i think of the future i can see him by my side and i know he feels the same, just gotta get there now. Our current plans due to me being still unemployed are that he will move in with me at my parents (if they let him). I've rearranged my room so that it can become a reality now i just have to get rid of all the things i really don't need.

2008 is promising to be a good year, i'm going to be going onto the advanced course with the friends ive made on the intermediate and it brings me one step closer to my goal of becoming a counsellor. Also in june dave will be with me and hopefully he'll manage to get a job quicker than its taken me. I also hope to have a job by june, new deal maybe able to hep me there so fingers crossed. Also i plan to start learning to drive as well as leading a healthier lifestyle than i do now. I took one look at the scales and decided i wanted to lose weight, im aiming for a stone atleast but we'll see how that goes.

Despite my negative moods that i have which are quite destroying in some respects, i am quite hopeful that the year ahead will have me moving forwards, hopefully in a way i want to go, or atleast puting me where im supposed to be.

xXx

well its been awhile

I have been avoiding blogging mainly because he family dog, tweekie died before xmas and i havent really been in the mood to blog. I'm now in better spirit than i was, altho still not 100%. Then again i still don't have a job and dave s still too far away.

Other than the obvious sadness of not having tweekie with us this xmas, it went, and it went ok, i have a new phone (same number) and it purple :) also got a learning to counsel book of my uncle which i think will be very handy in the run up to my exam on 21st jan. My nan was not using her false teeth so only the veg and pudding were eaten at xmas dinner. I myself had a lamb steak that could have been better, still enjoyable tho. It was nice to see all the family again.

we came back and then dave came down the next day which was cool, was soo happy to see him. Then it was the new year, rich and his gf came up the sat before and left evening on new year. Twas good to see him and his gf, it was also nice to have a full house as it were, it just all felt right which was nice. We had the usual gmae of trivial pursuit, which richs gf won on teh old kids questions (some of which are actually hard) and then i came next although i was using the genus questions nd a lot of help. We finished it just before 12 so dave did his party piece on singstar (madonna - material girl for those who havent had the pleasure?), i also did a song and my bro gave a rap song ago.

Since then me and dave spent some quality time together, went out with the rents a few places, picked up a few treats. Dave had to go back to uni yesterday which sucks but hopefully ill get to go visit soon.

I am now on the New Deal thing at the jobcentre, im having regular meetings with my advisor and i get a travelcard that lets me get cheap bus and train fares. Least this should get me into work i want to do even if i have to do volunteer work. i am also if my dad agrees to help pay going to be going onto the advanced certificate in counselling in feb after my current course finishes.

I am also going to be getting a new (well secondhand, lets here it for freecycle) futon, which means sorting my room out again ands i only did it just before xmas. oh well, the mattress has to be better than what i have at the moment.

It has been busy and this is just what has happened, ill post later my thoughts fo this year and share my goals with you, if i blog them i might actually get a few done.

Happy new year to everyone

xXx

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xmas and all that jazz

well dave is now back at home and even though he has skype its being a bit pants atm, we'll see what happens once hes back from the pub. Also there is a lack of us playing WoW together atm as he parents unistalled it on the home pc but he can hopefully get if off the site adn we'll be back on weds ish. It does give him a good excuse to do his project work which is good.

I have now done all the xmas shopping and have treated me and dave (coz he'll wear it occasionally) to a Magic the gathering hoodie (yes i am that sad, you can also get jewelry which i wouldn't say no to either). I am also buying a few random cards (well anywhere up to 1500 depending on the auctions ending 2m morning) and a theme deck from lorwyn block. Scarily enough i can afford it, well i won't be spending more than i am getting in from jobseekers.

This week, mainly tomorrow i hope, i will be rearranging my room so that i dont have to walk over my double bed (is actually a futon so only 6in off the floor) to get o everything in my room. It will also make it a bit easier when dave is stayiny as his stuff won't get in the way then yay. This as well as hopefully making my room tidier will also give me something to keep me busy :)

Xmas is going to be spent at my aunties as usual and i think we are going up on sat and coming back on thurs after. I hope so as dave i getting the train down on friday so hes here for new year and the annual getting beaten by mum at trivial pursuit event. On the plus side we may get beaten but we'll get tipsy in the process and eat lots of nibbles :D

i also have college this week and we might be ending early and going the pub after, which reminds me must write xmas cards. the downside to college is that the skills assessments have begun and im a little scared, altho atleast we don't have to counsel our tutor like i thought we would have to, we get to do it in a normal role play situation, its just shes watching quite intently.

I think i've waffled enough for now.

take care

xXx

Graduation, Bill Bailey and all that

Well last thurs went to hatfield, twas good, on friday was my graduation ceremony, i'll upload pics once i nab them off mum and dad. it was good if long, i actually had a moment where i felt proud, but that quickly went as i thoughtback to my still being jobless, oh well. Mum who had lost her voice found it again just after the ceremony and she quickly said she was proud etc just in case it went again (which it did but not until sunday).

Then we came back to wales on sat with dave in tow and after some food shopping for mini xmas had been done. Dave then cleverly laid the old sofa cushion i have on my futon on the floor and we slept on them, rather comfy, better than the floor and one of the best nights sleep i've had in awhile, still sleeping on it now even tho dave went home yesterday.

On sunday we made the journey to cardiff by train. We were there a bit early but we got to look in some shops nad check that Cardiff international arena was where i thought it was. We went and had dinner in kfc, nice and cheap altho the toilets were rubbish. Then wandered back and picked up the tickets finally and waited for the doors to open and spent about an hour sitting waiting for the show to start. It was worth it though, the show was awesome, there was some repition of material altho they were classic bill as well as he tweaked a few gags, most of it was new and soo funny. Hes just as brilliant live as you think he is on dvd, well worth the £55 i spent on tickets.

After seeing bill we stayed with me mate rach in cardiff, finally got to see her house, and we can offically all get xmassy now as shes put her tree up yays (says the girl whos organised a mini xmas for the 8th and 9th). Also got to meet her kitty, whos so much fun as all kittys are as they will try to pounce on anything. Will have to have a proper vsit to see rach one weekend, just not sure when, curse you lack of money.

On that note i spent a fair whack of this fortnights jobseekers on my familys presents and sams, so xmas has been ordered nowit jst needs to turn up. Also this week as wel as getting moeny, i got a fever which i think is going now but still not 100%, but i'd rather get it out of the way now than have it at xmas coz thas annoying.

Take care all

xXx

Patch Day

*warning WoW related post you've been warned*

Ok this is a World of warcraft post through and through, so patch day was yesterday and all went smoothly in so far as the realms were up by 10am in the UK. I read the patch notes again for the tenth time, find that one of my shamans talents has been changed. Not complaining tho as they gave us all the talents points to spen again and i like the talent they replaced the old one with.
The big thing about this patch other than a new 10 man dungeon that i'm proably never gonna do although you never know (now to find more friends to help make the guild me and dave want a reality), is hat in this patch tehy have decreased the exp needed to level and we are geting more exp from kills and quests oh yeah, my shammy went up 1 level as did my main and my hunter went up 2. Ok so my main (Lvl 51 frost mage) was farming undead in western plaguelands for argent dwan rep and doing 1 quet chain around said undead but still it was fun, also my frostbolts crit for 1200 plus atm, ok so daves curse of elements that him puts on them probably helped but only a little.

Another cool thing about this patch is my arcan intellect spell has had its mana cost reduced significantly which im very happy about, i can now do it 3 times (me, daves warlock and his voidwalker) and have mana left. Means less time drinkin to regain mana and more time fighting :D
Also we can now right click to add items to trade windows and mail windows. Also we can send more than one item per mail, finally. The guild banks which have no effect on me yet, are cool, well the ogrimmar ones are ok, the undercity ones rock and look soo cool. Roll on making a guild.
All this means questing becomes more fun than it was and me and dave might hit lvl 60 maybe before xmas depending on how often we play. Now to get all my alts i play on my own to 30 atleast. They were supposed to be making it so that you could click on a recipe for equippable items and see them equipped but that doesn't seem to be working, although i'm not getting the "i can't equip that" voice so i dunno what they've done. As usual Blizzard are making more work for themselves but atleast they have keeped The Venture Co realm up on patch days which when i was at uni was a rare thing. It was the reason me and dave made alliance characters on another server.

I think thats enough WoW talk for now, but yayness for the patch.

xXx

Xmas

Well ok its still november but as i'm doing a mini xmas with my friends on the 8th and 9th of december i've started to think about it. I realised something this year that i should have figured out last year and will be a shock for my rents if they ever read this. I actually enjoy the giving of presents and stocking, for we have them at mini xmas, as well as the big meal more than getting presents. I mean getting stuff is nice but i prefer it when something i've done puts a smile on someones face. This could explain why i'm doing a mini xmas for 7 people including myself and why the stocking im filling are going to probably end up costing more than the presents. i think it will be worth it anyway.

The only downside is the fact that xmas isnt cheap no matter how hard i try and if it wasn't for dave everyone would be getting penny chews. We agreed that i'd buy most of the presents and he'd buy the food, altho he will repay me half the present money when he can. i will be chipping in with the food as some of it is being bought when i visit. Also i've had to do the present buying online and amazon don't directly sell all of the stuff i want to get so postage costs have been a pain but its worth it i think. I ideally wnat to order all the presents this week but that would mean spending more money than im getting in nd i'm trying to avoid that so maybe one day i can get out of my overdraft.

Oh well, its all worth it and maybe in the new year someone will want to employ me. I hope so, me and dave want to have a weekend away in the summer and preferably not in a tent as much as it is fun i'd like to stay somewhere with a bed.

Aside from planning mini xmas and working out what to get the family i've been playing alil WoW, athough roll on patch 2.3 coz then leveling will get a little easier. its also started getting colder and the bathroom is freezing. Some of the new kitcen units have been built and they look nice, can't wait til the new year when its all done properly with a new floor to boot.

well i'm off got some laundry to sort out, washed my dressing gown so its ready to be lived in over the cold months, yay for furry dressing gowns, just need some nice slippers now.

take care all

xXx

back home

Well i went to see dave for just over a week and it was great. I now miss him like mad but what's new. I got my mum a xmas pressie while i was down there and have started making preparations for the mini xmas i do for my friends. I now have the challenge of buying shed loads of presents with not alot of money, oh dear. I'll figure it out though, its mainly annoying because i am probably going to spend one fortnights jobseekers on xmas in one go. Wouldn't be so bad if it was spread out a little and also if dave could pay me back the money he owes and will owe (i'm buying his parents pressies for him plus we get joint pressies for our friends - means we can get a bit more expensive things). i know i'll get it by like the summer but still i'm trying to slowly work my way back to being in credit argh. oh well i like making my friends and family happy so it will be worth it.

It was good to be back in hafield, went to nandos again yum, went shopping in st albans which was cool, got to play on daves xbox 360, viva pinata yays, also oblivion and fable :)

Went to ikea yeasterday with the family, rich came too as he was needed for the moving of a fridge freezer and lifting the heavy boxes containing the new kitchen. Was a long day but meant i slept really well :) we have 95% of the new kitchen, ikea didnt have 2 bits in stock and theres still the floor to order.

i think that'll do for now, off to play a lil WoW and then i have college tonight at 5.

xXx

Yayness

Well on friday i'm off to hatfield again for just over a week to see dave. Also today i managed to apply for 2 jobs and i have an application form for another. I'm not expecting them to get back to me, no one has so far but lest im trying. I'll admit i havent been trying as hard as i could but part of me is just wanting to stay in hatfield with dave. I figured that it would be too much hassle and soon enough if mum and dad allow he'll be here with m anyway after hes finished uni. I look forward to that.

I should really start to pack coz 2m ive got my course in the evening and i need to check my coursework for that at some point. I've also got some films i really should watch considering i borrowed them off dave atlest a month ago. oops. I'm really looking forward to seeing him, and making him some decent meals and trying to spoil him on a budget, hmm.

aside from that things are the same, im playing too much WoW although lately i have been playing hellgate london as i was invited to the later stages of beta, i'd say as its being released in nov, but i got to try it and i'm liking it so far. I think it will be a possible purchase once its cheaper and i aslo i wouldn't be a subscriber, having WoW is bad enough.

xXx

He likes getting me yellow roses, this is the second lot he got me, there was also a bottle of wine in the room with these when i turned up but i drank that :D


This is baby ellie that dave got me for aou annivarsary :) soo soft

Below is the crystal rose that he got me and the note says "This rose, like my love for you shall never fade or die"

He has his sweet moments.

xXx

More positive?

Well today i seem chirpy a bit, well im not mopping, yet anyway. I'm still missing dave loads, and i can't wait to see him again, which when i find out which week is half term, ill know when i can go see him and i might be able to stay for a week and a bit. Which would be cool as we'd get more quality alone time, rather than me trying to fit eveyone into the time and then feeling like i missed some time with him.

This visit i have cunning plans in place though, well i'm arranging some quality time with him and some quality time with anna which will also be spent shopping for items needed for the quality time with dave. I only need to get stuff because he doesn't have any candles and im not carting mine 200 miles especially as i hopefully will be taking daves Lorwyn cards with me too.
I'm hoping i get to meet up with liz again and maybe do lunch with kitty, which would be cool, and for those times when dave has lectures i have his xbox 360 to play with, we got fable to work so i might play that of viva pinata if hes got it for me.

Daves already said that he has a surprise for me that he picked up yesterday, now im curious and now i have to pick him one up to wind him up :)

aside from all that not much is happening, im playing far too much wow and now have 13 characters over 2 servers although one may be deleted. but we got matt back on our server, as well as andy, soon we'll be able to start a guild :) maybe that will stop all the guild invites we get, it wouldn't be so bad if they took the time to ask, they just invite you and we auto click decline, then again i auto click decline anyway oops.

I'm thinking i should go off and level my priest so that me and dave are both lvl 11 when we start again. Dunno what we're gonna do today, hmm oh well

take care all

xXx

Happy and sad things

Well at the weekend i went to visit dave at uni. That was fun, also saw anna, matt, andy, sarah, jay, sam, kitty, liz and then most of psifa. So was a busy weekend but was good fun.
On saturday dave and i had our 1 year anniversary, we went and wandered round the galleria and went and saw surfs up. After that we went home and got changed and then went out to Bella Italia for a meal. The food was gorgeous as was the present dave had saved to give me at the restaurant. Its hard to describe in words so a piccy will be taken. He also got me short circuit dvd and singstar rock ballads, as well as a world of warcraft calander. He also got me a smaller version of the big cuddle elephant i got him and its soo soft and cuddly :)

I went to psifa on the monday which was cool, even though i'd forgotten how to play magic a lil but it soon came back to me. After we got back we decided to watch Howls Moving Castle, which was cool, and as the norm with anime a bit strange. I did doze a lil during some bits as it was like half 12, and as we were watching it in japanese with subtitles meant i missed a lil but i got the jist i think. Didn't finish watching it til half 1, oops. Good job i didnt have to catch the train til half one on tues.

It was really hard to leave, although i didn't cry as much as the last time thankfully, but i was sad and i miss him soo much. I miss uni in general, and all of my friends as a fair few are still there. I'm thinking of going to visit for maybe a week if we do have a week off on my course for half term, coz i can fit it in around signing on.

On the job front, i have heard nothing from coffee#1 which sucks coz i could actually do that. I have an application for tescos up the road, and im applying for tchibo, so its a case of keep trying.

Well i think thats enough for now, im off to try to run through a high lvl area (well im lvl 50 and the areas 53 - 65) just so i can up my skill in herbalism.

take care all

xXx

Things are good(ish)

Well college started on thurs, and after 4 hrs of it i'm feeling positive about the course. It is interesting to study and practice the skills needed to be a counselor. last week we covered health and safety risks, and practiced how to construct and build a contract as it were with a client so that we are both safeguarded. Just been trying to do my homework for thurs and its more challenging than i first thought but its all good.
Been for an interview today at coffee#1, i think it went ok, and now im just waiting to see if they want to give me a trial shift. In many ways i do want a job, some income would be good and ok it'd only be a little more than jobseekers but every penny counts at the mo. It might mean that i get to spend less time visiting dave and everyone at uni tho and that is where my heart wants to be and not just coz of dave. I like the independence and at this exact moment im missing a psifa night, i will get to go to one maybe once a month but i loved the social life. Heck i miss alt nites (no matter what they try to change the name to) even tho the music did get a bit repetitive at times.
oh well least this weekend im seeing dave, just got a long thurs to get thru, coz not only do i have my course from 5 to 9 but i have to be up and in town for 10:40 for the jobseekers check up interview. Which means i need to be up at half 8 maybe earlier. Boy im gonna be tired by the time i get to college.

Roll on the weekend and mine and daves 1yr anniversary. Doesnt seem like its been a year.

take care all

xXx

College

Well the college still doesn't know if my course is being run tonight or thursday. I've got to ring them up in soon. If it is today i need to be ready by half 2 and they said i should ring back at 2, heres hoping i dont get put on hold and shunted about departments again. I'm kinda hoping for thursday and i suspect it will be but we'll see. If it is thursday then thats good coz i have time to prepare an i won't be rushed. Also im hoping the psifa film night is then so that then dave and i will both be busy on thurs and we won't miss each other too much. Least when i start i'll have something to ground me and keep me focused, stop me moping hopefully but i'll probably still mope but a lil less.

On the plus side in a week and 2 days i get ot go see dave, and we get to have a date out to a very nice restaurant :) also hopefully see a few other mates and maybe go to psifa. I'm looking forward to seeing everyone and it will be fun, shame in some ways that i have to come home. but oh well its only like this til june. that sounds so far away and so not at the same time. Hopefully it'll go quickly once me and dave are both studying.

On the job front theres a few in town, im applying to coffee 1 again, oh joy. Theres a few xmas jobs and ill see if they will affect my jobseekers 2m. Also a temp job in peacocks but i will look again 2m when i sign on and see if i have any hope.

tis all for now, off to ring the college again *sigh*

xXx

Some thoughts

Well ive been back home over a week now and i'm still missing dave. Hes got the internet now though so talking to each other is easier, hooray for skype. I am worried that he'll be to busy sitting at his pc to remember his friends and to go and have fun with them. I do feel like a distrction from uni life, even though he said that its ok. This ldr will be hard, specially as im trying to visit once a month but its only for a year, well til he finishes uni. Its weird knowing that he'll go to psifa and he's living with mates and im not there. Im also gonna miss psifa although i will go when i can. Him going to uni has had an impact on the ldr, which hasnt been helped by me feeling lonely as most of my mates are still at uni. I think that once he settles down when his course starts then ok i wont be able to play WoW with him all day but i'll know when im likely to see him online.

Aside from that jobs are thin on the ground altho the temp jobs for xmas should start appearing soon. I'm hopefully off to town later today even if the weather does look naff. Dad said that peacocks needed someone and im gonna try for coffee#1 again.

Tweekie our dog is poorly altho to look at her this minute you wouldn't think it. Shes needs to tablets a day and its up to me as mum and dad are in bruges (well later today they wil be), they spent last night in belgium. They took the train as mums not keen on flying. I hope they have a good time and mum doesn't push dad in a canal like she said she might.

I'd better go medicate the dog, put some proper clothes on (a dressing gown is not suitable for job hunting) and go to town before it starts tipping down with rain (good luck to me it is wales after all :P)

xXx

Weddings, university and life

Ok its been awhile since my last proper blog, oops. Lets see whats happened then,
on the 1st sept my best mate rach got married and i was one of her bridesmaids and it was a great day if knackering. SHe looked so gorgeous but then she said me and em did too. Well i'll let you decide, the pics will be on facebook soon once i've nicked them off the pc downstairs. My bf took some of them and we were using my mums camera.
From then til the 5th me and dave were making the most of being together and also packing to go back to uni. On the 5th we made the long journey back to hatfield by train, also the underground was not fully working and i now have a dislike off the bakerloo line and its many steps, we had six bags/suitcases between us and it was not fun. We got to hatfield tho and all was good. The rest of daves stuff turned up on sat and hes pretty much unpacked all by now. I think me and him could have had more quality alone time but we would have felt rude coz anna was the only one there til the other 2 boys showed up on sunday. They don't have the internet yet but i hope they sort it soon.
I returned home yesterday as today is sign on day yippee. I had got used to saying goodbye to dave but this time i was crying 2 days before i left. I think its because i know that hes going to have psifa to go to and hes got all his friends there. Most of my friends are there too and i feel so detached coz im far away. I feel im missing things with dave, that there are moments we cant share coz of the distance, makes me a lil sad. That and if i do get a job then my once a month visits that im planning will be short and sweet. They would be for 2 -3 days rather than 5 which sucks but i do need the money more. Its made me realise how hard this year is gonna be and how i feel like a part of me is missing because dave is so far away.

oh well, the sooner i get on with it the better, time will fly, it should do its daves final year and it won't be long til he'll prob come to visit and not leave. Its likely, and would be nice, just don't know what mum and dad would say hmm.

I think thats enough for now.

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